De-stressing

When I'm de-stressing my mind goes blank, blank, blank.
I don't care about anything or anyone not even myself,
i just want it blank.
Sometimes i mindlessly shop, sometimes i mindlessly eat too
but you know, you could never ignore the taste of a Magnum.
but yeah, blank, blank, blank.

I do feel like alcohol.

Why so scared..

ooooooh, this modern love!

Anyway, This week has just been so so...so much has happened..its so much to take in really, From traveling to attend the 2-day event in shoreditch, meeting up with friends, Family, travelling to Bicester, and now back to 'Castle its been one long week. My aunty calls me World Traveller cos i even have to go back in three days time. Exhausting, i wish i was travelling first class...hehe

I have never been more tired in my life to be honest, plus my precious wonderful phone has been spoilt by Miss N, my niece. This week, i have to sort out things on the school front, house front, visa front, ball front...so many fronts i hope i can carry it all, Lord I pray for strength.

Huff huff

There is so much to blog about, but aah, so little time!
I have never been so swamped and behind at the start of a semester.
it's all good. I didn't even feel stressed mentally but my body thought otherwise
because i developed a very annoying tic/twitch in my right eye, I need to slow down.

I hope i get the chance to chill a bit this weekend and write a proper post, till then! ^_^

Yesterday

Do i like Him? i dont know, i usually respond to peoples' feelings for me. If i feel nothing, response = 0 and so on and so forth, bad thing? i dont know, but its something i've come to learn about myself, But i swear , iv daydreamed about it a lot, thats how i fall asleep. If i feel nothing...., the clock is ticking, i would find something else to daydream about.



In other news,

Went further south from the midlands, my back hurts, from coach to tube to train, damm! i am wasted. Went for a grad party, it was cool to hang around and meet new people. oh yeah, i was standing by myself at Waterloo waiting for my friend so we could both hit the party, and here comes this dude with gold in his teeth trying to chat me up. First he gave a wink as he passed me, but he came back. 'i like ur hair' i smile sheepishly 'oh ur so cute, are you american?' 'Why are you acting like guys dont try to hit on you' then i see my friend coming, and i smile 'oh your..' the guy says, i give a nod while my friend gives me a hug, the guy smiles and saunters away. Oh thou commuters!

Meanwhile, just before i got to the station...this guy, a muslim, gets on my car while in the tube, to be honest i was scared for like 5minutes, what if he was a suicide bomber??..... i had thought. Well this deserves a post on its own and i will find time to do it, 'The stereotype we feed'

Before i go to sleep, just a little word on the documentary on BBC 'Welcome to Lagos' I really liked it, it was so refreshing to hear Naija-speak not like the disappointment Blood and Oil wrought. I loved the frankness of the stories. I guess the only thing i didnt like was that it was incomplete. I didnt recognise Lagos, because the docu started out in the slums, and if that is Lagos. I was bred in some other state then. I would have imagined that the documentary would give a brief overview of what Lagos is and then zoom into the slum, dump areas. Anyway, it was emotional and really good plus i loved the soundtrack! ^_^

So there, Night! my eyes are already half way down...

I Quit

I quit. I'm so tired. My mind doesnt say so, but my body is exhausted.....I'm done. I'm taking that vacation, and im taking it seriously