One Quarter Gone.

Lots of things have happened, from the Euphoria of the New year in January and the submission of my application for **** to the Birthday/Wedding Anniversary of my Parents/Uncle n' Aunt and the positive return of my application in February. March brought along its own share of events. I can only look back and say its been an eventful quarter. I got to go to places I've never been, met new people and a bit of fun here and there. I am not where I projected myself to be going into the new quarter, but I'm glad about the things I've done, and I am still confident in the plan.

Back to the Future

I doubt I will ever understand the turning of clocks forward and backward, but hey life goes on! I made sure I stayed awake for the turn this time, I watched my computer's clock change from 12:59am to 2:00am. This actually made me laugh. We keep shouting no time, there's time, some time, time! time! time! When time is just a human construct that tries to measure the immeasurable. Someone said ''To realize the unimportance of time is the gate to wisdom.'' I believe it now.

''Time is always relative.... For the terminally ill, six months are a lifetime, and not a very long one. To a three-year-old waiting for Christmas, it's an eternity so distant it's not even worth thinking about''

JOHN SAUL, Midnight Voices

Sumptuous Saturday

I don't have this very often, but I'm glad I know people who try to host a get-together every now and then. I only have about one or two 'friends' in this life, and Its hard trying to hang out normally, because most people tend to bore me if the purpose of interaction is not clear. 


But not last Saturday! It was at a flat down in Wimbledon. I stopped over at Waterloo first, the sun was great, but I needed sunscreen badly! I wore my flowy neon skirt and I really felt summery. After the disappointment that was Saturday morning, I headed down to Wimbledon, not without picking up a few things to share, Almond Twists, Carrot Cake and Carrots (Yep, Healthy balance! lol). The shinding hadn't started, the host was just cutting the chicken fillets, 'I'm so hungry already' I thought!

After about an hour, others started coming in with some food to share and just their nice presence. After we got starters arranged on the table, it began! 

Got involved in a game called Catan, very complicated at first, but was great once we got into it, two hours passed and we didn't even know! We had to break up for supper atlast. We tried to save the game layout, so we could continue after eating but alas, an earthquake manifested and the land was broken!

 SUPPER!!

Lamb, Chicken, surprisingly no rice! lol

After the whole thing, we still had dessert! it was hard to go home, but I left at 10:30pm, the train from Wimbledon to Nottinghill must be the slowest train ever! I got home at 12am. Thankfully, someone came to pick me at the station. Just before I went to bed, I was filled with so much thanksgiving, and prayers, then I remembered that the moon was supposed to be a big deal that night. So I looked out of my window, and there it was, majestically shining on me, really beautiful. Nice way to end my day, it was. I look forward to more of this kind of days ^_^

The Plan

I love walking across the field between my house and the train station, in the dark. Lately I haven't done a lot of walking because of the rains which leave the field really soggy. There are three main reasons why I love doing this. One, its a faster route if I have to walk, in other words, if I don't want to spend 130p on a 4min bus ride when I can walk it in 10. Two, I love the open field, because I'm mostly alone with my music, the stars and the moon. The third reason, I found out today. There is a tall block of flats close to my building so when I get to the start of the field station-side and look across, it looks really far away, and even as I start to walk, it seems like I would never get to it. So I began to walk today, and was just enjoying the peaceful atmosphere, looking ahead at the block, I then noticed the moon and stopped, it was a perfect crescent, wish I had a proper camera. When I snapped back to reality and turned to continue the walk, it suddenly seemed like the block of flats was upon me. Before I stopped, It still looked far away, but finally I passed by it and went on home!

While walking, I was listening to Bloc Party's Compliments, which I think is one of the saddest songs ever. Every time I listen to it, I have a personal video of it playing in my head. people like robots marching down seemingly endless stairs, then they fall and disappear. I like it because it is a reminder of how futile this life is without God, a reminder that God has a plan. I love the instruments very much too and no, it's not a 'Christian' Song but it won't cost you anything to listen to it. Just google www.grooveshark.com, type in 'Bloc Party Compliments' then listen. 

We sit and we sigh

And nothing gets done

So right, so clued-up

We just get old

And all the while

Been torn asunder

Nicotine

And bacteria

What are we coming to

What are we gonna do

I thought of how the block of flats represented things that we hope for, things that seem too far to reach, like the Ultimate plan described in the bible , like the things I am presently working towards...so much plans. They look so far of, and even as the days go by, it never seems like I'm getting closer. But I realize that if I sit back and fold my arms, if I give up, I will never reach it. Just like I finally reached the block, my hope is renewed, just like it suddenly came upon me, I know I will get there.

The Simple Girl

An uncle, once said to me, ''I've never seen anyone as simple as you, if someone takes something from you, you will just get another one''. I laughed and said people just need to let go. I wasn't always 'simple' I had to learn and I'm still learning. And in my learning, I found a peace that is beyond my understanding. Thats where I find succour, its sustaining and everlasting. I have let go..the world is depressing enough, we all need an escape, death or something else. I have found my escape which makes living simple for me, not perfect, just simple. 

P.S: I still want to live on a farm.lol

A Tale of Choice

I went to a classical music concert at one of the museums. When I told my aunt, she asked what I would do when I get older, thinking I meant a pop concert at first, funny. The pieces included Tchaikovsky, Kreisler and Prokofiev, none of my favorites, but the Violin was heavy in the pieces, so that was good enough for me.

Once upon a time, I started learning how to play the Violin, but I got bogged down by school work (Engineering wasn't a piece of cake for me) Now that I look back with the courage to admit it, laziness and lack of focus I'd say, really made me stop. The lessons were not convienent but anything good or worthwhile is never about convenience.

I watched her on the violin and my heart was filled with pain and lessons. She played with such skill, my heart welled up with tears. I could feel the soul of the pieces.

We tend to explain or excuse away the treasures in us.  It's not easy, of course it's never meant to be 'easy'. Still, you can, we can. Anything you can do now, do it and do it well. It doesn't matter how small the steps are. The stories of the composers themselves are lessons to everyone. Start, you have to start somewhere

I enjoyed the whole piece and found my way out of the museum, on to the next thing, still filled with a bit of joy, a bit of melancholy, a bit of I CAN, no regrets, just the realisation of possibilities. What do I choose? I choose to live.

Ist JUNE

This day brings back LOTS of memories, especially ones that include Rain, Yellow Raincoats and Hot Chocolate.lol
Yup, I remember AFPS, Victoria Island..It rained so hard, I, my sisters and my neighbours were trapped in school..we didn't get picked up until about 7 pm, after they had threatened to put us in the guard room.lol, No gsm then so, we were totally under Gods mercy..My mum was really sorry and made up with some pamperment hehehe..that was one of my best nights.

My Break was so eventful its unbelievable..Watch this space :D

Now the Gist


A Few of my Favorite things

My friend invited me for a "care group" meeting of his church, so we both went there from work, Fortunately.lol, there was a party, I was quietly happy.
My eyes took in chocolates,cakes, biscuits, donuts, samosa..aaah, my tummy was groaning.
Thankfully we were late and it was just about time to dig in. YUM YUM!

After the feast and take home secured in my bag, rain started to fall, so most of the ladies just stayed back.And the whole discussion moved to hair, how they didnt want rain to beat it..
Next thing one of the ladies ask me Where did u lock your hair? lock..I had my hair in twists all to the back..another ones says..its nice that its all slicked back with out gel after I told them I had just twisted it.

I got asked a lot of questions;
Your church doesnt allow you to perm your hair?
Are you deeper life(yeh this question again, i wasn't wearing earrings too)
Is it spiritual?

No no no!, I said just want to leave my hair like this, one suggests I really should loc it..I say No!
Natural hair doesnt have to be lowcut and locs..

They gosh over how pretty I look with it and my "mature" glasses.lol
I start to leave and the owner of the house, who is really funny exclaimed..oh your legs are like toothpicks..so straight..I couldn't but laff
such a nice ending to a full day..

funny that I'm getting more compliments as a natural..it should tell something.lol


Stuff like this doesnt happen everyday!

Demgocrazy day..as my friend said on twitter.was really crazy
I spent most of the day lazying about, I untwisted my hair..I was just floating about basically, did some cleaning cause my friend was coming for the weekend. lol
Towards the evening, my friend arrived, we couldn't go out cause she was so tired. I freshened up and decided to say 'hey' to a friend in my neighbourhood, I went to their house and they
began to complain about hunger.

It was about 9:30pm, but we went to a restaurant got food, sharwama, suya.
on our way back..I forget my phone in the CAB! I wanted rapture to take place at that moment
and the bad thing is I realize about an hour after..because I had been so caught up in gist and sharwama!
I felt so silly..me of all the people in the world, forget my expensive nokia phone in a cab!!
oh Gawd!
my world literally crashed.we tried calling the number, it was unavailable..after about an hour of jokes and lament, I went into my house and told my friend, she said she had tried to call me but I wasn't available.

I lay on my bed and started thinking of how to pick up the pieces..going to do mtn welcome back..buy a N3000 phone...why don't I have rich friends/ boyfriends!!.I was way beyond sad.
I tried my number again with my friends phone, same thing..Annoying..I decided to make one last call before I slept, and behold! it was ringing!

My heart beat so fast I thought I'd have a seizure..then a man answers..all form of respect came into me..Good evening sir! please sir! thank you sir! you don't know how much this means sir!
God bless you sir! goodnight sir!
He told me that I should meet him at a taxi park, the next day to get the phone, that I shouldn't be scared and all, he gave some explanation for turning off the phone at first though.

aah I was in Heaven!, I couldn't sleep properly, I was dreaming about it and would wake up and look at the time..ain't morning yet?

Good people still exist in Naija eh!! UNBELIEVABLE!


Reunion and an Undercover star

My Friend had come into Abuja for the project fame audition, i decided to audition too to satisfy my curiousity, i wasnt sure of what to sing just yet..but i was gonna give it a shot. there was environmental sanitation so we couldnt move until after 10 and after i had gotten my phone. the taxi driver had been so kind to bring it, to where i was and the reunion was tearful and we thanked the man profusely.

Next we headed to the audition venue, hm..loooooots of people there o, over 500, but we got there at about 11, so we managed to snag, 291 and 293..we went to wait for the auditions, my friend won a 2gb flashdrive,.that was nice, i was busy taking in the whole atmosphere..i tweeted about, it..the Razz folk i saw..fried hair, earrings and oversize suits. Belts, beads, boots all on one person..a walking boutique. I saw a couple of my university folks..hmm hmm..i tot, while on the line i made some wisecracks about the auditions and had people laughing..I couldnt hold my laughter until it was time to enter the audition room. Shoot!, my heart started again like a locomotive engine and my legs..i didnt know where they went. Somehow i got in, and theres this big woman with a smiley face waiting to test me. So after a lil chitchat, i tell her Evanenscence, my nerves make me pronounce it wrong n she corrects it..oo okey!

I sing tourniquet and she asks if im singing in my bathroom, I go ahead to sing Scars by Papa roach, she's not ok with it..and says she's unsure

I calm down and then belt out Bring me to life..perfect! she says and I'm all smiles..see you tomorow she says, I was quite happy.

My friend, well she didnt make it.

Wheew..that was my break oh, it was so darn hard getting back to work on monday,