Something I've never Done!!

Just did something I've never done in my WHOLE life! I cooked.....fried rice.......at 1 in the Afternoon!!!!



  

Sticking with PDP

I have decided to adhere to my PDP, no not the political party.. my Personal Development Plan. It is part of my New year resolution, actually its taking the resolutions one step further and i have the major ones outlined. Under each of them, i will reflect on the past week, the things i did and score myself pass/fail and then decide how to make things right!

Communicating Effectively

The way i want to achieve this is to listen more to what people have to say, pay attention to briefings and guide my mind from drifting too far way. On my course, i would say i moved a step up in school but home was a disaster, So far just under a few days, i have suffered some setbacks. There was a huge misunderstanding in my house, i have no idea where it came from, and sadly i have lost all communication signals..not all, some really.lol. I don't know how to salvage this situation..really. i give my self a FAIL on this even though i did communicate better with course mates and my friends (one amidst tears, i'm such a crybaby sometimes!)

Discarding Negative habits
I am a late sleeper and that leads to my waking up late in the morning, which i really cant have anymore. I need to be up by at the least, 7am every morning, i try to target 6, because i tend to snooze even after the alarm has gone off. Also, i am giving up on procrastination little by little, i was about to postpone writing this post..but i told myself i must get it done now and here i am! I definitely passed on this! i never got to school late last week, i also turned in my portfolio of practice on time! PASS. This week, i hope to keep up and also identify any other bad habit and deal with it appropriately!


Writing Better
This is definitely a FAIL, i am sad about it, the way to achieve this objective is to write something everyday on a particular topic and read some literature, and i failed WHOLLY last week. This week, i intend to do it!

Working Harder

This is a work in progress and yes, PASS on this. The new project for this semester is one that is really interesting and last week, i was assigned specific tasks which i took up with ZEAL, i even managed to teach some course mates all the techie stuff, hehe. This week, i will do my best! ^_^

Ignoring Naysayers
I have always been good at this..i tell myself, but there is a certain limit on a humans' soul. Anyways, there were moments last week where i felt like "???" completely clueless. Like..what am i doing, i remember walking through a group of my course mates who had been chatting and as i walk pass, its all quiet like you could hear the crickets..heehee. I realized i really don't have issues with people... i really don't, i just like the simple life and many seem to have issues with that. I'm grateful for the tiny bunch of friends i have..its not like they are pumping positive words and flattery down my ears, there is a honest advice and encouragment which such friends give and you are ready to become a better person even just for their sakes. PASS for last week, this week will surely be better!

Get Involved!
My friend says he worries about me, cos i dont seem to have much of a social life! lol, i don't know, i cant say i really want to go out there meeting lots of people, its not just me. Anyways this week, i resolved to be involved as much as possible, yup a PASS! I attended quite a number of lectures on Design and Design thinking, it was definitely rich and worth the time, my mind was overclocking and a bit bogged.lol. I was also to attend the Haiti fund raiser yesterday which i missed, so sad about it. I also signed up for dog-walking (You know how much i love dogs :)). A non profit activity to help Seniors walk their dogs. i intend to continue next week, and its even diversity week at my school! i should have lots to do and lots to blog about ^_^

Show Creativity

I want to achieve this objective by illustrating everyday, by learning more about the Theories and Practice of design, also to write down my ideas, an idea everyday. I did illustrate this week, but it wasn't everyday and i also didn't write my ideas down. Even though i did learn more about Design..i give myself a FAIL on this and will work harder this week, to give myself a pass at the end.

Not bad for my first week, can't wait to see what the 'morrow would bring, can you?

Recap.

Well it is a new week and i know i should probably be referring to my PDP (Personal Development Plan) i will get on that ASAP. But i got to say that i feel some sort of energy. I dont feel as subdued as i used to be (maybe its the maca.lol).

My weekend was great, from friday had my friend over, we talked and talked, then we went out. I was supposed to meet with my coursemates and have a ball, but they were wasted by the time we got there, still we had some fun, danced, i had a glass of white wine (very nice brand) on the house.lol

Got home and didnt go to bed until i had something to eat which made me really sleepy, got up at about 10:30am, had to go for a Mary Kay constumer appreciation event and lecture. We got free gifts and i was 80% sure i wanted to become a consultant. right now...not so much. I dont think i am ready now, i must say..i still have time to cancel, but i will wait a little while.

Sunday, i went to church, and when i got there, the pastor was raising a prayer point about the Equality Bill, i really didnt understand what it was , but they were praying against it. i made a point to ask, and to just check online about the whole thing.

i did check and what i read wasnt very pretty, i just thought that the whole problem comes from the ''religion'' of a thing and how its being organised. i will make a seperate post about it.

Also, i got a huge bill, its really silly and i felt very terrible about it, but to pay that bill some things definitely have to give..All my shopping ends now, im only getting really necessary things and food of course.

I own someone a call, i must do that like right now.. :)

This week

I have a portfolio of practice to submit, My very good friend Peter, is coming to see me on wednesday, he's getting into the country today, cant wait to have a blast, but it seems like the hosue is going to be a full one, My housemate says his friend is coming tommorrow. wow i dont know how its gonna be, keeping my fingers crossed.

Coursemates

not still getting in sync with these people, some..kinda, some....never.

Course

Cant wait to handle what this semester brings. :D

Pandora's Box.

So i finally turned in the essay, i didn't realise i was late for submission and my paper was set aside for a markdown, luckily the letter to the PG office explaining myself (i was two hours late)got through to them and they let me off, thank GOD!

In one of our sessions, the lecturer BJ, talked about how many people are happy to just live life on the go, whatever comes, they just go with the flow and still turn up genuinely happy. While people like me, who would question everything will never get satisfied that way.

While i wrote the essay, lots of things began to turn up, its not honestly to do an analysis on yourself, there are lots pushed deep down, things you are afraid to touch and like my fellow Geordie would say 'Ah canna toich it'

One part of the essay was to make a summary of our strengths and weaknesses, this is how mine turned out.

The main strengths I have identified include, Creativity, Innovative tendencies in the view of work, the ability to generate original ideas proves really useful for my career development. We live in a world that is fast-changing and its been proven over and over that the ability to come up with something new, a design that works, makes the difference. I have a curiosity to learn and try out new things, I will always question the old, so that I can move on to the new. Another strength of mine, is my ability to keep promises and honour commitment. Every organization could use a honest person, someone whose word you can have as gold, integrity. I am a very tenacious person, against the odds I try to do things to the best of my ability, there's also dedication. If there's a project or work to be done, I stick to that one thing (the theorist in me) and will not rest until it has ended, finished, basically done with.
Others include , being a good listener, I readily lend a ear because of my high tendency for empathy. I love being helpful and enjoying teaching others, being able to meet deadlines, caring about people. I am actually easy to talk to, people are surprised but I make people at ease. I have a great sense of humour, my house-mates complain I laugh too much, but then they complain about almost everything.

The weaknesses that I have identified are not being able to communicate my thoughts, to communicate feedback effectively, also the tendency of being a perfectionist, expecting too much of others, questioning people's motives, getting annoyed easily, being impatient, wanting to work at a faster pace than my team-mates, and when at home I begin to procrastinate. I could also be very lazy, lack drive and slip into my comfort zone. I tend to start things and end up not finishing because I never get satisfied, there's always something to add or take away.

I have two very sharp contrasting sides, I am dreamy yet logical, a carefree worrier , it confuses me a lot and could end up becoming a hindrance to proper career development. I do not like asking people for feedback on me, I tend to avoid people because I hate conflicts. Careers are built on relationships with people and if I do not work on these weaknesses, there is no way my career will develop the way I really want.

Self-analysis is a continous process, and one other task in this assignment was to draw up a personal development plan which covers a certain period of time. I want to ease some of my weakness, work on them and be a better person each day in this period. Some of the things i have put down, are to make a log in my school portfolio blog, each week to measure my progress, success or fail. If i don't set myself straight no one else could :)

Flux 110110

I always thought myself liberal, open minded, fair and quite tolerant. The results from the Johari window developed by peers and close relations tells that much. I'm basically laid-back and carefree about many issues.

Yesterday I went through my blog,my writing was as best juvenile and some of my opinions, I have to say have changed drastically, I won't outline them in this post but I know sometime when I have the cause to blog about it, I would.

I know I have grown as a person and I want this blog to be a reflection of that, when I saw some of the posts I made earlier, I wanted to edit them..but I realized it would be to no avail. What is important, is the fact that I have grown as a person, can't say I have gotten anywhere, but self-awareness is a great step, and having a recorded time-line that documents this, priceless.

Yesterday, I told my friend I would blog more, weekly atleast, not only because I want to document/tell folk whats been happening in me life, also to develop skills i suddenly see are extremely crucial. I wish I had done so earlier.

I start off with today's post of course :) The last Binary day of January.

N:B: I will also start using my own illustrations, very soon :) pwomise

Confuzzled

Awake, still thinking of how to get this essay together
Discovered new music today,
Above and Beyond, a British Trance group
I really like. :))

Awake, and this won't write itself,
I have always found it easy getting into someoneelses'
'mind' and still be fluent about it,
But when it comes to mine, I am stuck, so stuck, so stuck, so stuck.

Know Thy Self

I've got this course, that is probably the hardest thing I have ever done in my whole life as a student. The course is called Developing the Inter-disciplinary self, it is so...honestly I never thought I would feel so burdened. I also have a 3000 word essay to complete and submit on Tuesday the 12th...I haven't finished with 1000 words. It seems daunting and I know what to do.

The essay is all about analyzing my self and why self-analysis is important and I have to use various tools and books to make the body of work a whole.

It seems pretty interesting but its extremely difficult. i am writing this blog post to give me a clear head, to help me organize my thoughts and put them down in writing..

I will finish up by Tuesday, but I want to finish good.

Self analysis and continuous self development is a task which must be approached with all honesty and it must not be taken as a ride. it is extremely important for personal growth. we can't run away from ourselves therefore we must know it.

2010

I welcome myself to this new year, I know it began like every other day but I'm so glad to see 2009 gone!
Lots of Resolutions this year, I've never really had like, the need to write them down. I always knew, I wanted everyday to bring me closer to the person i want to be. I wanted everyday to make me a better person, to bring some sort of fulfillment.
*deep inhale*

In this year, I want to achieve something tangible, I need to have that, I want some form of growth in the way I live, the things I eat, the health of my body and my hair..I want to see better.

I want to communicate more effectively,
I'm gonna.

I'm going to show my kindness more outwardly.
I will definately try.

oh yeah! I have to stop writing Definitely as Definately.lol

I know Family is first and foremost...I pray to never let them down.

I will not tolerate bad air around me, any negative aura must be gone!

I'm going to start things and finish them.

well, lots more but i will just leave them as points.

The List

1, Learn more about the THEORY and PRACTICE of DESIGN

2, Develop Great Habits

3, BE Positive

4, Learn to Write better

5, Work Harder

6, Ignore Naysayers

7, Make IT better

8, Get Involved

9, Be Kind

10, Have Passion

11, Dont Lie!

12, Draw something (i love faces though) EVERYday

I think this is not so much, to have for the new year.lol

So help me God! :D








HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Massive End of 2009 post

2009.

This has been the most eventful year so far.
The experience through this year is so thick, I couldn't cut it with a knife
I'd need a chainsaw.

Things i did.

Served my nation
Went back to my natural hair
Got into school for my masters degree
Cut off toxic relationships
Trying to live life on my own

Things unexpected.

Friction between my dad and I
Missing my Flight
Deaths of lots of people

Lessons Learnt

Life is short, Live it
Death is nothing to be afraid of.

Recap

I am still going to do a massive final post for the year 2009
and mehn what a year!

Lemme get over the spider-webs and things i have to clear here first
and i will get on with writing.

Soooooo much, sooooo much to do.

Retrogade

I am just waiting now.

Waiting to see if i would make the cut,

A fresh start to my life.

Bringing me out of the rut.

I Quit

I quit. I'm so tired. My mind doesnt say so, but my body is exhausted.....I'm done. I'm taking that vacation, and im taking it seriously

GONE?

Unbelievable, the only other person I have felt such for was Diana.

R.I.P MJ

A beautiful thing

I love Boston Legal alot, not just because of their smart quips but stuff like this really gets me

its so beautiful and had to be funny too! lol :D

Denny: What I give to you, what - what I share, I do with no one else. I like to think what you give to me, you do with nobody else. Now that - that may sound silly to you. But here's what I think is silly - the idea that jealousy or fidelity is reserved for romance. I always suspected that there was a connection between you and THAT man. That you got something you didn't get from me.

Alan: I probably do. But gosh, what I get from you, Denny ... People walk around today calling everyone their "best friend". The term doesn't have any real meaning anymore. Mere acquaintances are lavished with hugs and kisses upon a second or, at most, third meeting. Birthday cards get passed around offices, so everybody can scribble a snippet of sentimentality for a colleague they've barely met. And everyone just "loves" everyone. As a result, when you tell somebody you love them today, it isn't much heard. I love you, Denny. YOU are my best friend. I can't imagine going through life without you as my best friend. Not gonna kiss you, however.

Its Frosties .. oops..err!

I just can't get over this LNGKM!!!

TGIS!

Well not that my saturday is going well, but I get to see less people on this day.

This past week, well its been from one place to the other, and I got to watch Startrek and catch up on The Jeffersons FTW!

I also realised my short nails get dirter than the long ones, so I guess I won't be cutting them as short anymore.

One of my uncles, who was the PDP chairman of Edo state, died this week in an accident on the way to Benin, his first son also died, I dont even know what to say to my cousins on FB, I'm so sad for them..so so. may dey RIP.

Little notes and Definitions

Uneme

Name of my tribe, I opened a blog trying to document the history (the-uneme.blogspot.com) and present, i opened a thread way back on Nairaland, exclaiming that my tribe was going extinct..well, from the statistics it looked so, but I am glad things are turning out different :)


Keiko

This is the Japanese name i picked for myself, means "Lovely child" lol
all you folks that wont stop bugging me when you can access your nearest google.lol
my close friend calls me Hime *redness*

Paper route

Band I just discovered through a friend, great music.

Calculus

Apparently my teeth can solve dy/dx...
ok
Problem with my gums, I'm booked for dental surgery on Friday

Corruption

Went to Immigration to retrieve my passport, and i had to "cooperate" if not "my file will lost"
when will the right thing ever be the right thing to do?

DrawingDay!

oh yeah..I'm a "Drawer" lol

I've uploaded some drawings on my deviant account

to participate. http://viante.deviantart.com/

ooh i loove drawing.

Honest Blogging

So..
I stumble on some blogs and i see an award like "Honest blogger"
so im wondering . . the other bloggers are dishonest or not that honest
Or what is Honest about the particular blog.
True, people tell lies and all, but how do you know.
just wondering o jare.

Another Friday. .Honestly I wish Monday would never come.

Ist JUNE

This day brings back LOTS of memories, especially ones that include Rain, Yellow Raincoats and Hot Chocolate.lol
Yup, I remember AFPS, Victoria Island..It rained so hard, I, my sisters and my neighbours were trapped in school..we didn't get picked up until about 7 pm, after they had threatened to put us in the guard room.lol, No gsm then so, we were totally under Gods mercy..My mum was really sorry and made up with some pamperment hehehe..that was one of my best nights.

My Break was so eventful its unbelievable..Watch this space :D

Now the Gist


A Few of my Favorite things

My friend invited me for a "care group" meeting of his church, so we both went there from work, Fortunately.lol, there was a party, I was quietly happy.
My eyes took in chocolates,cakes, biscuits, donuts, samosa..aaah, my tummy was groaning.
Thankfully we were late and it was just about time to dig in. YUM YUM!

After the feast and take home secured in my bag, rain started to fall, so most of the ladies just stayed back.And the whole discussion moved to hair, how they didnt want rain to beat it..
Next thing one of the ladies ask me Where did u lock your hair? lock..I had my hair in twists all to the back..another ones says..its nice that its all slicked back with out gel after I told them I had just twisted it.

I got asked a lot of questions;
Your church doesnt allow you to perm your hair?
Are you deeper life(yeh this question again, i wasn't wearing earrings too)
Is it spiritual?

No no no!, I said just want to leave my hair like this, one suggests I really should loc it..I say No!
Natural hair doesnt have to be lowcut and locs..

They gosh over how pretty I look with it and my "mature" glasses.lol
I start to leave and the owner of the house, who is really funny exclaimed..oh your legs are like toothpicks..so straight..I couldn't but laff
such a nice ending to a full day..

funny that I'm getting more compliments as a natural..it should tell something.lol


Stuff like this doesnt happen everyday!

Demgocrazy day..as my friend said on twitter.was really crazy
I spent most of the day lazying about, I untwisted my hair..I was just floating about basically, did some cleaning cause my friend was coming for the weekend. lol
Towards the evening, my friend arrived, we couldn't go out cause she was so tired. I freshened up and decided to say 'hey' to a friend in my neighbourhood, I went to their house and they
began to complain about hunger.

It was about 9:30pm, but we went to a restaurant got food, sharwama, suya.
on our way back..I forget my phone in the CAB! I wanted rapture to take place at that moment
and the bad thing is I realize about an hour after..because I had been so caught up in gist and sharwama!
I felt so silly..me of all the people in the world, forget my expensive nokia phone in a cab!!
oh Gawd!
my world literally crashed.we tried calling the number, it was unavailable..after about an hour of jokes and lament, I went into my house and told my friend, she said she had tried to call me but I wasn't available.

I lay on my bed and started thinking of how to pick up the pieces..going to do mtn welcome back..buy a N3000 phone...why don't I have rich friends/ boyfriends!!.I was way beyond sad.
I tried my number again with my friends phone, same thing..Annoying..I decided to make one last call before I slept, and behold! it was ringing!

My heart beat so fast I thought I'd have a seizure..then a man answers..all form of respect came into me..Good evening sir! please sir! thank you sir! you don't know how much this means sir!
God bless you sir! goodnight sir!
He told me that I should meet him at a taxi park, the next day to get the phone, that I shouldn't be scared and all, he gave some explanation for turning off the phone at first though.

aah I was in Heaven!, I couldn't sleep properly, I was dreaming about it and would wake up and look at the time..ain't morning yet?

Good people still exist in Naija eh!! UNBELIEVABLE!


Reunion and an Undercover star

My Friend had come into Abuja for the project fame audition, i decided to audition too to satisfy my curiousity, i wasnt sure of what to sing just yet..but i was gonna give it a shot. there was environmental sanitation so we couldnt move until after 10 and after i had gotten my phone. the taxi driver had been so kind to bring it, to where i was and the reunion was tearful and we thanked the man profusely.

Next we headed to the audition venue, hm..loooooots of people there o, over 500, but we got there at about 11, so we managed to snag, 291 and 293..we went to wait for the auditions, my friend won a 2gb flashdrive,.that was nice, i was busy taking in the whole atmosphere..i tweeted about, it..the Razz folk i saw..fried hair, earrings and oversize suits. Belts, beads, boots all on one person..a walking boutique. I saw a couple of my university folks..hmm hmm..i tot, while on the line i made some wisecracks about the auditions and had people laughing..I couldnt hold my laughter until it was time to enter the audition room. Shoot!, my heart started again like a locomotive engine and my legs..i didnt know where they went. Somehow i got in, and theres this big woman with a smiley face waiting to test me. So after a lil chitchat, i tell her Evanenscence, my nerves make me pronounce it wrong n she corrects it..oo okey!

I sing tourniquet and she asks if im singing in my bathroom, I go ahead to sing Scars by Papa roach, she's not ok with it..and says she's unsure

I calm down and then belt out Bring me to life..perfect! she says and I'm all smiles..see you tomorow she says, I was quite happy.

My friend, well she didnt make it.

Wheew..that was my break oh, it was so darn hard getting back to work on monday,