Creativity

This made me laugh this week

Shedding Tears

I went to celebrate with my friend over her recent DR. status. Just before the party commenced, I saw her younger siblings running around, playing peekaboo. I just smiled and thought about how happy and carefree they were, how life used to be..next thing I knew I started crying. Ran to the bathroom to get a grip of myself.

The act of crying has been defined as "a complex secretomotor phenomenon characterized by the shedding of tears from the lacrimal apparatus, without any irritation of the ocular structures"

I stared at myself in the mirror and asked what these tears were for. Tears of joy? Tears of sadness? I honestly couldn't place it. But I was so emotional. I didn't have the best childhood possible but it was just the times of innocence that can never be gotten back. I stood there thinking, life has just gone and passed, passed, passed. 

Anyways, when I managed to get a grip of myself, and got out. Met some women who had arrived, they encouraged me to sit outside and get some air, got talking..and just relieved myself. Only to hear that a 27 yr old lady had lost her husband of same age to some disease. I had no more tears but kept of thinking about how this life is. I had so many different emotions running through me at the moment, what to do?, what to do?, what to do? Live in the moment. I thought about how rough my week had been 'Live in the moment' With a much needed sigh, I abandoned the fresh air and went in to party. 

Crying is indeed Therapeutic

FML

Tabula Rasa

No not the game!

Z is for Zero....So I 'unfollowed' all the people I follow on twitter
Why? one morning I just felt like a swarm of bees where all over my head (real ones not vuvuzeli)
and I couldn't take it any more, plus i know I've tried staying off twitter, but i cannot, not for long
the only option was to create some *ZEN* on my time-line.

Anyways, I did want to tweet at myself..lol, use it as fodder for my project blog..e.t.c  e.t.c
All well and good I'm liking the concept right now, but I'll wait to see how it eventually turns out.

Another Day, Another case of the Runs

*GROAN!*

Madness.

'I still have mad love for you'

These are the ones to run away from, Four-Fourty!

Get in line!!!

I love having things organised and all. And I know I should label my posts but..aargh well whatever.

Why so scared..

ooooooh, this modern love!

Anyway, This week has just been so so...so much has happened..its so much to take in really, From traveling to attend the 2-day event in shoreditch, meeting up with friends, Family, travelling to Bicester, and now back to 'Castle its been one long week. My aunty calls me World Traveller cos i even have to go back in three days time. Exhausting, i wish i was travelling first class...hehe

I have never been more tired in my life to be honest, plus my precious wonderful phone has been spoilt by Miss N, my niece. This week, i have to sort out things on the school front, house front, visa front, ball front...so many fronts i hope i can carry it all, Lord I pray for strength.

What is love.

"What is love 

Oh baby, don't hurt me 

Don't hurt me no more 

Oh, baby don't hurt me 

Don't hurt me no more 

What is love"

I really 'love' this song, by Haddaway, but the question never got answered, He didnt want to be hurt that's for sure. It seemed like the person on the other end didnt seem to care much. So what is this Love thing. I wouldnt attempt to give any long explanation, but i will give an account of what i know it isnt.

''I don't know anyone who loves a highly sarcastic person" someone said to me last week. My reply was 'Then i dont want those kinds of people loving me'  Besides, he is rather ignorant....Not that i'm highly sarcastic..lol. 

But If you love people because they are good enough to love, or just okay enough to deserve your love, i suggest that you pocket it..atleast i dont want that from anybody. So the moment things change, and you become less desirable, the person withdraws their love..

Help me out somebody..its really difficult, but its one step in admitting what should be. 

.............

Omword, i'm so emotional, i miss my family

and i'm crying buckets as i type this.

Beyond Google maps.

Do you sometimes feel like jumping out of yourself
and viewing the world like an omnipresent would?

I do.

It usually comes together

Now that I'm at the finals of my Masters programme, I finally see how many things have come together and quite nicely too.

When i was much much younger, i never ever ever wanted to be a Doctor or an Engineer for example i knew things i didn't want to be, i knew things i didn't want to do, but i was highly confused on what to pick for University studies.

I considered, Human Psychology... I've always been interested in the mind, the way it works and how it affects all other aspects of us. But c'mon....Even though this is what my dad studied, my parents woulda been like..'Whaaaa' trust Naija parents.

I considered Vet Medicine just because i like animals,...Dogs especially...and certain breeds...imagine.. wasn't too serious a choice but..lol. I remember when we found out Barty had a cataract i was like, i shoulda done this, ya know! hehe.

I considered Dentistry if i was to become a 'doctor' this was it...but to spend my days staring down #%^& mouths..i choked on my salad.

I considered, Architecture....yeah i've always known how to draw, very well..and i loved design, but i can remember my dad telling me 'it wouldn't get you a job'. I didn't understand then, but i understand now that it isn't exactly what you do in University, that gets you a job. I kinda still wish i had done this...but i probably wouldn't have made it through, because i dislike drawing within specifications. 

The other things i liked, were basically unavailable and my parents wouldn't have had it, I tried applying to schools in US, but i got lazy over the process. so i had to stick to what was obtainable. 

I.T was the big buzz word then..Anyways 7years after, I'm proud to be an Engineer. My Masters course finals, i am able to do something with Multidisciplinary interactions...my Thesis is based on this.

I am working on Architecture, Product design, Graphic design, Psychology, Ergonomics, Adult Health, Management, Engineering processes... e.t.c its awesome

The only things that don't factor in here are Vet Med and Dentistry..in fact my teeth are so bad, i have to use sensitive toothpaste at my age and stage...but who knows what would happen next...

oooh ooh I see the Sun, Hoppings fair...lets go!

Maybes...

I love the way the Geordies make a plural of may be.

But there's a girl I wish was my friend,
I could marry her, but the world would say we are lesbians.

Nneka.

Maybes.

Follow me, I Follow you.

It all started with Susan Blackmoore and her book, The Meme machine...then I watched her presentation on TED. I made notes on the book because it raised very interesting points. things that had never crossed my mind before...i love books like that. But no I didn't buy into all that was said, however something struck me. The propensity of Humans to Imitate and the Theory of the Memes it is indeed a strange thing i thought, we are the only creatures that imitate ourselves...even with the mega intelligent brain we have. What really is stopping us from harnessing this energy. Some say it is Adam's curse...

I also had a discussion with my Thesis supervisor when he was still my DE Context lecturer. We had been walking to the studio after a lecture at the Design School. The question that arose between us was..If Everyone had the tool wouldn't it be chaotic, i leaned towards Yes, at the point but now i'm sure. Yes, it could be chaotic, but it is easily avoided and yes also, Everyone has the tool. Everybody can innovate, Everybody can be Creative. Everyone can design something. Raw Energy is chaotic and if it isnt harnesseed and put through proper channels there in lies the danger.

I believe we need to wake up, take charge of our consciousness, return to subjectivity, Question things more often. I overheard one of my coursemates yesterday say 'Why do i like what i like?' it was really strange hearing that and i smiled, because i'd been reading a blog http://youarenotsosmart.com just a day before and had read such.

We need to let go and return to ourselves.

But...

I'm extremely moody, but this kinda cheered me up
and i think i can sleep with a lil smile

Dustin Brown.

On a positive note....

I had a weird day, what with getting lost, Then the Ghana-Germany game started and Ghana disgraced me with bringing Juju and not scoring a thing! glad they still went through sha. Then, i got another rejection email....Also the rice i try to boil turns into Tuwo shinkafa....

Anyways.......

I was among those picked to speak at a TED-Like conference by Sense Worldwide in Lon. I feel like Chimamanda already. lolol. All expense paid and everything. 

Two things are going to make me stand out at the Conf..not that i don't already stand out and without trying.....I'm the only 'Black' person from my school, and possibly at the Conf.

Yeah you guessed it..

One, The Quality of my speech and how long i can hold a debate...oops i forgot, i will be speaking about my thesis question.

Two, Outfit!!

Wheew i'm tired.

Lost!

I was only trying to get to my mates to watch the game!
And this is the second time, losing my way in the quayside
not going there again!!!!! :'''(

The Source

You know, people don't consider the source of things enough. The root of the matter, of any matter is usually key to solving or understanding the issues you face...

err ok I'm not going that deep...

Just talking mostly about what people may say about you. Once upon a time, some one randomly started chatting with me on facebook and says that someone who I know thinks I'm @#%^&*( ok..something i can't remember right now. So I ask 'Who is this person?' and he replies why? I told him I needed to consider the source of the information he just brought to me. When he says who, I shrug it off, because the 'Source' was totally irrelevant to me and my life.

The Human Race

You know that's the way i see it. One Race..Human, Finito! I wonder why only the Fantasy books and games seem to get this. You have the Human Race, The Orcs, The Elves, The Demons...e.t.c Clear cut differences, but ooh no leave it to humans, we always look for the littlest thing to discriminate against...Levels of Melanin, shape of eyes??? Sometimes I can't help but laugh like a mad man at the ridonkulity of this Race matter.

F%^K!

Am i the only one who dislikes this?

I really do, when used with the wrong elements. Take rice for example....pisses me off.