When I Fall

.....I know where I'll be Landing.

Books that must be Read pt.1

There are two books, you must read before this year runs out, very influential, for me. I would write summaries when I have the time.These books are the thinking man's kind of books. If you don't want to think please don't bother picking them up, go to your local bookstore and search for Nora Roberts, or something like that

Mere Christianity by C.S.Lewis

Fela: This Bitch of a Life by Carlos Moore

It's Limbo!

So, I'm at the point where I am still officially a student but technically not. I am looking for proper jobs, which in turn will bring in proper cash. The only problem is that 9 to 5's hold nothing for me, I dread it. I am applying for jobs and treating myself to a holiday. While there's an offer, it's not yet in the bag so all I do at home now, is clean and cook where necessary. I decided to volunteer on Wednesdays at the church i recently started going to, so as to get out of the house once in a while. It's been nice so far meeting people from different nationalities, and lifestyles. I have also tried to get on with my projects but they haven't been easy. Everyday I try to build myself in one aspect or the other.

I usually don't have 'relationship' issues, but eeeh, the last few weeks have been 'icky'. My sister going back 'Home', opened another chapter in another book of my life, I met someone, with whom things aren't as they seem.I miss her though, Its a pity she didn't get to see as much as I'd have liked, but she'd be back soon.

Also, I got two new prescription frames, One a designer and the second Vintage! all thanks to my aunt *muah*.i feel so fly, ha!lol

Travelled up north, went for a wedding on Saturday, It was really nice, lovely couple, lovely location, great LIVE music, food that got better and better and the best chocolate cake I've ever eaten! of-course over a glass of champagne..tres classy. My kind of wedding!

Got to attend a concert by 'Midnight Crew' I wonder where they got their name from, but it sounds like something Aro Meta would call themselves. It's all well and good, the music was great, more so than I imagined.

I have learnt lots over the weeks, about Love, Life, Cooking, Food, Sleep, Prayer, Life's Troubles, The Essential things, Kindness, God e.t.c

It's a brand new week today, and hopefully I will continue in my bid, to develop things out of nothing, relax my mind over lots of issues. Call everyone that needs to be called (I tend to neglect people in this regard way too much, if you aren't online, there's a huge chance of not being in communication these days..bad, I know). See friends, See a movie, basically enjoy life as it comes, even though I am in Limbo! it could have been Hell you know :D

The Mrs Club! Pt.1

So my friends are convinced I have Marriage very strongly on my mind. Well as a female, the thought of being a Mrs doesnt venture too far from your mind, and as you grow 'younger' some unseen and seen forces, tend to drive you towards achieving the 'goal' and you have to make up your mind, For me? or Not for me?.

That being said, They claim it's all I have been tweeting about recently 'This older guy, I wanna get married, I don't wanna get married, I wanna marry an Alhaji, I wanna marry at 35'  'Marry Marry, Marry' in the words of one of them. It sure made me laugh but it's not all true ofcourse. Well at this point why shouldn't it be though. I have four guys who would marry me tomorrow, if i just made a call now and said OK. And why not...I don't give myself enough credit. because I am a complete wife material (A whole 5.6 inches of the stuff) like one of my friends suggested.lol. I cook well enough, I love cleaning, I repair my own computer and electronic gadgets I bargain well, I don't spend money too much(I know how to save), I know what it means to Love, I have a Masters, I am smart, I have great genes e.t.c..So yeah why not??

Someone once said 'Any Idiot can get married' and that's the truth. I honestly believe it is not something everyone has to do, neither is it something that starts at the Church altar or the court room.

In the words of C.S Lewis 

'Love is a deep unity, maintained by the will and deliberately strengthened by habit; reinforced by (in Christian marriages) the grace which both partners ask, and receive, from God'

People have to be deliberate in their choice and its a matter of sticking with it (Will). It is definitely something you do with both eyes open.

In the words of Fela Kuti, 

'Marriage is a solidarity agreement entered into as individuals, in a quest for completeness. An intimate locus where social concerns and physical pleasure are fused.Not a divinely ordained and sealed package of Do's and Don'ts, it is about bonds forged around mutual feelings, a shared vision and the pooling together of resources to fulfill common objectives'

This is what people need to understand, I Once asked a question on twitter, If one can make marriage vows on the altar, why can't they make the same in their house? Does the number of people watching contribute to how far or how strong the commitment to each other is? 

Meanwhile, me, I am just chilling for the best man, worthy enough to make this life-long commitment to. If I find none, my life won't be less meaningful or unhappy. It is MY life and I would live it to the best I can.

Whip my Hair

It just makes me so happy..Now this is the Sesame street my kids can watch!

Sesame street - I Love my hair




Sesame Street + Whip my hair (I love to whip my hair.lol)



Whip my hair choreography



The Official Video

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o5mKAgb5px0&feature=channel

Your Love...

I love Seal and the whole album

 

The Lyrics are amazing, really goes straight to me heart.

SEAL - Loneliest star

Picture the sky that is how high I reach

But your love, is a chance I'd like to take

With each breath in me I wait

If it brings you back to me

Because I'm free and I'm young

I'm the loneliest star from the sun

But I feel that I'm close to the one

Who will stop me from coming undone

Cause I'm free

I have been close

I have been almost near (who do you really want to make it, who do you want to kill)

But city light

But nothing quite like here (who do you really want to be right here)

And your love, (your love) is a light that binds us both, (your love)

With each breath in me I hope

We won't throw it all away

Don't you know that I'm free and I'm young

I'm the loneliest star from the sun

And I feel that I'm close to the one

Who will stop me from coming undone

(With your love)

I know that I could be the best with,

(With your love)

I know that I can take a risk with

(With your love)

I could fly with your love

(With your love, with your love)

If anyone would try and mess with

(With your love)

you and I would be possessed with

(With your love)

I would die for you love

(With your love)

Don't you know that I'm free and I'm young

I'm the loneliest star from the sun

But I feel that I'm close to the one

Who will stop me from coming undone

Cause I'm free, don't you know I'm free

Cause I'm free, don't you know I'm free. 

So far alive none have been right for me

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'God Mode'

Her name was Manon Batiste. The game was Medal of Honor: Underground. One of the FPS games I really enjoyed playing back in the days. When my brother bought the game, I was excited because here was a playable female character that would actually be interesting! not like Tomb Raider where Lara Croft and co bore the living daylights out of me!

I still remember the first stages vividly where I had to use a petrol bomb and as we all (gamers) know, the first stages of a game are the easiest even though you are playing in 'Easy' mode. So when I got into the fourth, fifth stages of the game...I began to feel uneasy. There was a sound the character made when bullets hit her 'Vuup! Vuup!' In one of the stages, is a sniper that you have to be very patient to know where he is shooting from, if not, 'vuup vuup' and your character is dead. I played the stage a couple of times because I'm not a very patient person and it really really got to me. Next thing, I went online to the very reliable gamefaq.com and got cheat codes YAY! i was gonna be INVINCIBLE a la GOD-MODE.  It didnt stop the game from being fun!! IMHO, lol, as some hardcore gamers would argue. I definitely didn't enjoy the idea of my character dying every second.

The memory of playing this game was triggered by the newest release of the series, which came out this month and has been highly controversial, it also got me thinking about life (as usual).We humans tend to create all sorts of fantasies, some form of escape, which tries to remove the harsh reality that we would all one day die. All the games we used to play from Mario where the charcaters all have extra-lives and chances to re-live to games like MOH where we have the option of Invinciblity elevating ourselves to a God-Like status. But we have to face reality at the end of the day, no matter what we do..we cannot live forever on earth. 

All the things we buy, all the stuff we acquire. There may be formulas for anti-aging..and what not, but i'm yet to see the formula that gives one invinciblity! Oooh the things I'd do, from jumping off buildings and airplanes to walking through fire and saving the world. We have created SuperHumans (Heroes as we call them) from Superman to Captain planet which mirror one of the Human desire. It only takes simple logic to work out that there has to be a plan for mankind, which is beyond what we see, this world isn't getting better, it's inevitable it will all end because it did start. ''All that is not eternal is eternally out of date.'' C.S Lewis

The desire for a 'God-Mode' quality only attests to the fact that there is a God somewhere who embodies this and much more. While we will never reach this 'mode' in this body. It is only reasonable that we live our lives in the best way possible, making the most out of each day. We have only the one..why live it as someone else's?

I'm really glad to see people finally waking up, embracing their OWN life and living. Death could come any time but haha in It's face! VICTORY because you LIVED!

omg CUTE OVERLOAD

Even I will get married because of she ^^^^^^^^^^^

Mind the Gap

If you live where I live and you use public transportation you will surely know this phrase 'Mind the Gap'. A reminder to stay away from danger. As I get older, Marriage and what not become more real to me and I would be lying if I said thoughts on it don't cross my mind every other day.

Just today a friend of mine told me he was extremely scared over marriage. And I told him it really wasn't a do or die affair. If you can't make the commitment forget about it (Mind the gap). Marriage causes divorce, especially when people don't even know what they are doing (they think they do ofcourse). The general belief of marriage is the commitment of both parties to each other. But it is one thing to believe and another to believe in...to trust or rely on that commitment, and do all that should be done to keep the promise. He believes his parents made a mistake and surely doesn't want to get caught up in the same.

Marriage for any other reason catapults the union into a myriad of problems as life has shown us and we decide to stay blind. It's funny that the bible doesn't say much (if any) about kids when it comes to marriage perhaps cause marriage is the cleaving of two souls alone. But my friend says he wants to get married because of kids. Selfishness, I immediately think because a broken home is not just where parents are separated or divorced. A broken home is where there is no commitment or love between parents and when kids sense that, it's hardly a good outcome. I told my friend to stop complaining and to get ready for wahala if that is his purpose. He is setting the kids up already for future 'brokenness'

For any relationship to function at its best there must be commitment, love,  kindness. . . .no gaps.

The True size of Africa

I am amazed! The maps lie to us. Africa is SO big, this has blown me away.

Click on this to get the full view


http://static02.mediaite.com/geekosystem/uploads/2010/10/true-size-of-africa.jpg

Cheers!

10/10/10

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The Nigerian Dream

It was 1992, the first time in Abuja. We went to spend Summer Holidays with our Dad. My mum, sisters and I boarded Nigerian Airways and made the 50mins journey to the capital city. It was an amazing experience. My dad had gone out of his way to make this holiday special for us. He came to pick us from the airport and drove us straight to Agura Hotel. We were all amazed at how smooth the roads were, and how new the buildings seemed. This is like London, my sister quipped several times. At the hotel, we had a FEAST in every sense of the word, all manners of food and drink, I really couldn't love my dad more at that point. But alas due to my stomach sensitivity I was visiting the toilet in no time. If we go by first impressions, Abuja was a pretty awesome place to be.

When we got settled into the house my Dad had been living in at the OAU Quarters, a nice cosy three bedroom apartment, my sisters and I wasted no time exploring within and without. We spent the mornings watching our favorite Christian musical and the afternoons exploring the nearby hills. Abuja was indeed something the whole of Nigeria could aspire to be like. Back in Lagos where we live, NEPA was the main hindrance to our fun, but here we could watch our movies all day with no fear of the power being cut, and when it did, in a minute we could cheekily call NEPA and have the power restored in seconds. Bliss!!

Night-time was equally splendid. After our usual cups of Nescao, we would get on our cosy bed. The weather was usually cool that time of the year, so we would pretend we were 'Abroad'. Tell ourselves stories and sleep off when we were exhausted. One of such nights, I had the dream. I remember the shades of blue duvet I had. It always made it seem my dreams were bathed in a light blue glow.

Waking up, I glanced around, and stretched while I sat there on my bed. My room was large and I was alone. The sun streamed in through large glass windows which the whole house was covered with. This seemed like straight out of the Jetsons. I got off my bed and pressed a button, my night wear was taken off and dumped into the bin which sends dirty cloths to the laundry. My dressing gown came on. Food! I thought, I went to the panel and pressed a button. An array of breakfast came sliding towards me, as I lay back on my 'La-z-boy' type chair and proceeded to dig into the food. All in my mind was, This is the Life!

Breaking John 3:16

John 3:16 – The Essence

It's hard to imagine a world like ours, without a beginning, without an end, and without a creator, It would just be senseless and void. But I believe there is a story behind us all being here.

'God so Loved the world'  

God created the world designed it as lovingly as possible. In Genesis, it is written 'It was good'. He never stopped loving the world, even when Adam and Co disrupted their stay in the garden. This opened the world up to sin, and all became corrupt. People have since had to struggle with sins. The Israelites had to sacrifice goats and cows continuously just to say 'sorry', how tedious!

This can also be likened to the Israelites in Egypt, when God wanted to deliver them out of the hands of the Pharaoh, The Passover (Exodus 11-12). God telling a story of Love. 

'That He sent His only begotten son'  

God loved the world, but the world had done wrong, and since ‘wrong’ has consequences someone has to bear them. The world is basically in jail but there is an option for bail (because of Love). Someone has to come and pay the bail because a prisoner cannot bail him/herself out. For justice to be done,  the prisoner has to serve the complete punishment or someone else has to take the burden. In His love and mercy, Jesus was sent to ‘pay the bail’ and release the world from jail. The bail was the blood shed on the cross, which replaced the goats and cows which were not enough. ‘Without the shedding of blood, there cannot be forgiveness of sins’

Continuing the parallel story, God sent the Angel of death to deliver justice to the Israelites in Egypt out of his Love.

'that WHOSOEVER believes IN him'

People tend to confuse Believing in and Believing. Believing, is just acknowledging the Existence of something, while Believing IN, means to Trust in or Rely on something. And this phrase tells us, That EVERYONE (regardless of sex, age, gender, terminology, 'race', tribe, anything you can think of) who TRUSTS IN/ RELIES ON Jesus... Similarly Everyone who believes that Someone came to post bail for them. They just didn't believe that the person came to the police station/prison. But that the person actually posted bail, which could only mean one thing!! FREEDOM!

Basically, If someone posted bail for you, and you believe it, I doubt you will remain in Jail. You will run out screaming, shouting and thanking God. But anyone who doesn’t believe, even though bail has been posted, they will remain in Jail, because its incomprehensible to them.

In Egypt, The direction was if you believe the angel of Death was coming, regardless of whom you were (Israelite or Egyptian) and put the blood on your door (following the specific instructions), It will pass your house over. Israelites who didn't believe, had their homes visited, and damage done. It's as simple as that, amazing stuff. We also have our part to play in the process. We need to BELIEVE IN (Hearing and Doing).

'Will not Perish'

If you believe in/trust in/rely on Jesus, the wages (payment) of sin (death) is removed from over your head. Justice has been done, you are scot-free. Your slate as been wiped clean, you are released from jail! Nothing is held against you, no need to pay or (work) for anything, because someone has paid for you! Bless God.

The Israelites and Egyptians, who believed in the words of God, Their Sons DID NOT perish, what a blessing!

'But have everlasting life'

I am quite certain the opposite of Death is Life!! And to have it everlasting..wow!. Not only were our debts paid, but we had our account credited to the maximum, which means we could never go back to jail, regardless of what we do in future. We were not only released from jail, but also adopted into the family of the one who posted bail, What grace!! We are basically 'Born Again'

Same in Egypt, all those who were spared, woke up the next day to hear wailing though out the land, and I'm sure they felt 'born again' from the darkness of the previous night because they’d been spared.

How marvellous the Essence of our Faith, as simple as it is, still incomprehensible by many who feel they have to 'work it' out

The Grace and Love of God, Psalm 100:5 can be translated in different ways, but its message stays the same God's mercy and love is 'Forever', His Loving-kindness is 'Everlasting' and to (not some) ALL! Generations. 

Peace! :)

The Essence

It was only until recently that it dawned on me, that someone could actually be a Christian without believing in Jesus. It is definitely a very misunderstood word. Where did it come from? The word "Christian" is found only three times in the Bible. All the instances of its occurrence are in the New Testament. The references at which one will find the words are: Acts 11:26; 26:28; 1 Peter 4:16. In Acts 11:26. The word 'Christian' comes from the Greek word "cristianos," as we would spell it in English. The ancient Greek word meant "a person belonging to, one who is the property of, or a slave of Christ." The disciples and all those who had chosen to 'follow' Jesus, were called this out of jest , In Acts 11, it says the Disciples were called Christian. They never went about calling themselves that but anyway it stuck. 

What people don't realise is, words are just words, terms are just terms. The true Essence is believing in/trusting in/relying on Jesus. John 3:16, is perhaps one of the most popular verses. 'For God so loved the world, that He sent His only begotten Son, that WHOSOEVER believes IN him, shall not perish but have everlasting life'. This completely captures THE ESSENCE. It didn't say, WHOSOEVER acts like him, shall not perish... for example...'Christian' 'Christ-Like'. So today, we see so many Christians (Valid), who sadly, do not really believe. They do good works..but don't know the essence.

Guileless

There are few people in this world that you can look into their eyes and see no guile... I love that word 'guile'. You look into their eyes and its all calm, not that there's no problem with the world or with them. There is just no guile.

You Should Watch This pt.2

Get thee to a Theatre, whenever it opens near you.

Fela Kuti ~ Zombie

So much to say...

Yesterday I actually had the inspiration to blog about Nigeria. But today the passion is gone. There's too much one can say about Nigeria and where we are at, at 50yrs of Independence from the British Empire (as if). Anyways, I need to channel the little energy I have into something else. There are a couple of things that make me happy I was born into the entity known as Nigeria. But that would be a post for another day.

About my hair, I think i worship it too much these days, maybe that's why I'm being led to cut it all off (LOL!) I dyed it and...oh well my hair turned out quite red, one packet of dye is now obviously not enough for my thick hair (Lesson learnt) So I have the front of my hair, a coppery gold and the back, stark raven black. I want to love it, but i wanted something better!! this (LOL) >>

Men and their issues, So glad to be finally done (He's done) with me, nothing like having a nut off your back, Lord have mercy! I don't know where I am headed in this new adventure, But God dey.

New Projects, New things. I've got a number of ideas flowing in and out, I'm an ideas person, but turning them into something other than ideas, thats where the major issues lie. Dang. Hopefully I have enough energy to carry me through. I really don't want to work a 9-5 but if it would help my projects, so be it.

Wheew.

Someday

I would really love to sing for some people,
this will be the song
Perfect.


You were so blind to let me go
You had it all but did not know
No one you'll find will ever be
Closer to all your dreams than me
Believing the grass would be greener
You told yourself "I just don't need her now"
But I know you'll soon discover
You're never satisfied with any other

Chorus:
Someday Oo Someday
One you gave away will be the only one you're wishing for
Someday hey hey
Boy you're gonna pay 'cause baby I'm the one who's keeping score

You'll change your mind and call my name
Soon as you find they're all the same
And when you find yourself alone
Don't come back crying
You should have known
Believe me I'm not pretending
It's not hard to predict
This ending now
'Cause I know you'll soon discover
You're needing me in spite of all the others

Chorus x2

Maybe now you just can't conceive
That there'll ever come a time when you're cold and lonely
Baby, how could you ever believe
That another could replace me
The one and only
But when your down
In your time of need
And you're thinking that you 
Might be coming back to own me
Just think again 'cause
I won't need your love anymore!

Chorus 

Somedaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay









Thank You Mariah! :D

Heart Versus Head

I am definitely more likely to follow my heart than my head. But I have learnt that to survive in this world you need to have a good balance of both. Your heart where feelings lie, should be in tune with your head, which deals with logic and reason.

At the very stage I am at now. I have drawn a lot from my heart and thankfully reason has been there to guide my decisions.



I have finally said, Yes.