The Heavy Weight

I couldn’t think of any other way to do it. It’s been spinning around my head for weeks, driving me crazy.
The most important decisions always cripple me in the making. I felt like I couldn’t move. It was only the unbearable weight of the decision that forced me to make it in the end. It’s the only way I could start moving again.

I couldn’t stand it. I was going to sleep at night thinking about it, lying
there in the morning thinking about it, trying to find things to distract me and snatch back a few moments from it during the day, and always worrying I was wearing my heart on my sleeve too much and you would start to wonder what was going on.

I probably could have done it in a better way when it came to it. Probably sooner would have been good for both of us.

I don’t think I’ll know if I’ve made the right decision for a long time, especially with something this big.
I still don’t know if I’m doing the right thing. But I feel better. Lighter.

30th

I really do wish there was a device that would just take your thoughts and translate them directly to words, i cant seem to be able to do that on my own. .

Hmm, i also wonder why people think im so complex or "deep"

BLArgh!

This Modern Love

I havent still gotten over my Bloc party crush, i doubt its going anywhere soon, i hope to see them live later this year sef. :)

Anyhoo, i posted a note about online relationships and co on my facebook page, i dont want to repeat here, but Bloc party's this modern love reminds me of it.

Modern love everywhere, wo this thing really tires me, i closed my hi5 account today, i felt so good..facebook you are next! hehehe

Call me a traditionalist or whatever but, i dont want any modern love.

RAIN!!

Im so loving rain now, after weeks and weeks of fierce flames from the sun, this is beyond welcome..so refreshing. but i know after a week or two of rain, im gonna get upset and will the sun to come back.

Rain falling,
Music produced by Quincy Jones, Tevin Campbell singing Tomorrow from the Back on the Block album..so angelic..,
Chicken in my mouth,

Some sort of bliss.

Funny Feelings....

I feel funny.

Funny bad, really.

Something in the pit of my tummy,

Has nothing to do with butterflies...


i remember sitting in the car with an Indian friend he says

"OOh you have butterflies" because i had a queasy look on,

i reply "You have x-ray vision too?"

I havent played a good game in a long while, i guess thats why. .

Still expecting my Nintendo DS, Mr P!!!

In The National Ass

Yup, I am up in there and I can tell you,

without mincing any of my precious words, IT STINKS!!

Good Times

I have seen good times, great times, fantastic times

Today was not any of those . . .I havent felt so overwhelmed in a while

now I may be quitting my job

I'm so tired, I can't even remember the rest of what i wanted to post