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Tuesday, March 31, 2009

The Heavy Weight

I couldn’t think of any other way to do it. It’s been spinning around my head for weeks, driving me crazy.
The most important decisions always cripple me in the making. I felt like I couldn’t move. It was only the unbearable weight of the decision that forced me to make it in the end. It’s the only way I could start moving again.

I couldn’t stand it. I was going to sleep at night thinking about it, lying
there in the morning thinking about it, trying to find things to distract me and snatch back a few moments from it during the day, and always worrying I was wearing my heart on my sleeve too much and you would start to wonder what was going on.

I probably could have done it in a better way when it came to it. Probably sooner would have been good for both of us.

I don’t think I’ll know if I’ve made the right decision for a long time, especially with something this big.
I still don’t know if I’m doing the right thing. But I feel better. Lighter.


Dammy said...

If it makes you feel better and it makes you feel lighter, then it must be right!

You must understand that no one can love YOU as much as YOU. If it makes you happy, then it is right!

Feral Female said...

I really like this, I can't quite decide whether I want to read it as a narrative to a story and there will be more parts or instead just a poem.

GamineChic said...

@Dammy, thanks
@Topup,lol. Thats all dere is to it ;D