But...

I'm extremely moody, but this kinda cheered me up
and i think i can sleep with a lil smile

Dustin Brown.

O Fortuna

Ok, So between Saturday and now, i failed in my task to make soup! aaah. And theres no chance now cause I go on hols from Friday. oh well!!. I've been busy making plans for my holiday, I don't want to exceed two weeks, the work i have to do is MASSIVE. but i want to relax too, Moving a lot around the south end, should be fun!

On Sunday, forgot a document for my CRB check (enrolled to help in a creche) so i had to go for the evening service in church. While I was feeling good with myself through out the day, cause I looked 'Trendy'. The evening sermon which was 'Healing Life's hurt' began to bring about memories, some good some bad.

ooh the good times, going for fellowship at Transit Village, watching and dancing to Colby's treehouse, Kids Praise and the donut man, I recently dug these up on Youtube and it made me wanna cry. Also when we were younger my sisters would say i was the ugly one. I took it in stride, i dont really know how it affected me, but being told your the ugly one could never have good feelings come with it. Still i believe things like this helped me shape ideas about myself from a very early age. It didnt matter if i was the 'ugly' one, someone had to be.lol.

Anyway, i look back and only laugh, we were kids. Experiences can make you Bitter or Better, make your choice. Ive made mine ^_^

Meanwhile apart from my 'loc-ed guy obssession' of which I actually saw two guys in one day who totally rocked my boat, both dark skinned, one had long locs but he had a kid with him, DAMM! lol, the second one was in passing, he had 'cornrows' fine boi..:(

My latest obsession is O Fortuna by Carl Orff. It is very popular but I didn't know who the composer was until recently, and I cant stop playing it....it speaks volumes to me...

O Fortuna
velut luna
statu variabilis,
semper crescis
aut decrescis;
vita detestabilis
nunc obdurat
et tunc curat
ludo mentis aciem,
egestatem,
potestatem
dissolvit ut glaciem.

Sors immanis
et inanis,
rota tu volubilis,
status malus,
vana salus
semper dissolubilis,
obumbrata
et velata
michi quoque niteris;
nunc per ludum
dorsum nudum
fero tui sceleris.

Sors salutis
et virtutis
michi nunc contraria,
est affectus
et defectus
semper in angaria.
Hac in hora
sine mora
corde pulsum tangite;
quod per sortem
sternit fortem,
mecum omnes plangite!

English Version 

 

O Fortune,
just as the moon
Stands constantly changing,
always increasing
or decreasing;
Detestable life
now difficult
and then easy
Deceptive sharp mind;
poverty
power
it melts them like ice.

Fate—monstrous
and empty,
you whirling wheel,
stand malevolent,
well-being is vain
and always fades to nothing,
shadowed
and veiled
you plague me too;
now through the game,
my bare back
I bring to your villainy.

Fate, in health
and in virtue,
is now against me
driven on
and weighted down,
always enslaved.
So at this hour
without delay
pluck the vibrating string;
since through Fate
strikes down the strong,
everyone weep with me!

Cigarettes, Sugar and Nice things.

I have a Love-Hate relationship with the smell of cigarettes. I was sitting in the studio one morning this week and someone had opened the windows because the studio was getting too warm and was quite disturbing. But as fresh air flowed in, the smell of cigarette wafted in, i am certain it was moisture in the air and the smell that triggered my memories. Water + Cigerette always triggers childhood memories, splashing in the pool at the Apapa Club, having suya and just precious pure fun times. amazing. Really really sad i can't bring those times back again.

Funny, as i went along the day, different things began to trigger memories, I was cooking and as i opened the Maggi cubes, The days of Chocomilo and Picnics on 1004 grounds, began to swirl in my mind. they don't say 'the good old days' for nothing.

I was trying to make a cuppa too, and realized the days of my sugar had come to an end...ok, St Louis cubed sugar is triggered and brings along memories of days in 1004, putting cubes in 'Ogi' lol. good times!

Yesterday,

The day before one of my coursemates had asked me why we 'black' girls like to 'tie' our hair. He meant plait or twist, i tried to explain though, but i untwisted my hair, and had this massive fro which i walked around the streets of Tyne land with. Anyways, that led to one of my teammates saying, Your hair is massive! which led to discussion about hair and childhood haircuts. I was in stitches as i told them the story of how i tried to change this (for example)

To this,

When i was in secondary school and i was on low cut, i walked around with my eyes facing the sky, HILARIOUS!

Aah, it was a pretty good week, still on the search for jobs and ish, stabbed Gidi Night at the Empress today, Got my test results yesterday and its all good, nothing is wrong with me! yay!

Other things!

Housemate offered me a ride to Birmingham, yay!

Main Goal for this weekend, Make Soup!

Complete Research proposal

Oh yeah i'm TOTALLY Obsessed  ^_^

But, have you seen a finer guy!

Social Media is the Devil!

Err,..ok i just wanted to say, my week has been quite good. EVERYTHING didnt go as planned but pretty close. I guess its just about trying your best every minute of the day, being in the moment, understanding that ultimately the choice is really yours. My team made a headway in our project, having to tailor three concepts into one, with some help from our programme leaders, it went well.

After all that on tuesday, I went to attend a presentation by The Difference engine, http://www.thedifferenceengine.eu/ Six teams presented and i was most interested in

>> www.Geogoer.com

>>  Wishl.st app on facebook

>> Kuwalu, if it works as expected...

and the other ideas which will be wonderful to see how they all develop. It was a really nice time out, interacting with people other than the norm, plus there was food afterwards and wine! which i kept kicking back my throat like water. When my head started to swim, i knew it was time to let but not without taking off with three bottles of wine. I gave one to my friend though..i'm not that greedy.lol. Couldnt believe i was tipsy and going for a church cell group meeting. Never again, what a night!

My friend teased me that was in role-play costume, ok yeah i dressed up like this.

White shirt...check (better fitted though), Grey short skirt..check. No tie though, i had on TEAL tights, imagine people at the connect group arguing that it was GREEN. LOL!! Teal is my favorite colour at the moment though.

 I felt fufilled as i chucked two bottles of wine (Red n White) in my fridge ^_^. But i had never felt as knackered as i did, and i slept almost immediately i got home at about 12am.

The next day, i woke up with a massive headache, alcohol really needs its limit. Managed to get out of bed about 9am, missing out on my first lecture.lol, not really a lecture though..but i had planned to make it. But i got ready to attend the one at 11am, a lecture about Branding by 'N' Royle. it was an OK lecture. Then got to talk with Irini, the PHD. it was rewarding and i left with a better understanding on what i have to do concerning my proposed Phd leanings.

Managed to encounter a rude person at my local fruit shop, smh! got the bag i ordered from Ebay, quite disappointed. erhm erhm, i postponed my cooking today, but did some cleaning. I gave myself a major fright thinking i had lost my phone and IDs..lol, so funny.

Its all good, now i have to do some work before bedtime 2:30am knacks... :), and i'm hoping i make the Twestival later today, it'd be nice to see the folk again..

AND >>>>>> ^_^  i need help!

My 160th

Did i mention before that i love round figures and even numbers?? Did i also mention i hurt my neck last week? ok. i haven't written any post since the day I went to sleep and woke up with the sun streaming through my window and a song in my heart, with a firm belief that the day was gonna be great!

Well, the day was great.....if you are a sadistic pessimistic character who loves to see pretty gals like me get hurt! >_<  //kidding on the pretty part// lol. I swear, the only stressful thing i did that morning was run for the bus. But as soon as i got into my school building, my neck just snapped. I guess its an accumulation of decades of bad posture, but it should have given a warning! it could be something worse...but hey i'm not the sadistic....

My day was pretty ruined at that point, cos while fighting the urge to turn left, had to get on the bus, find a hospital and get well! i was given a bunch of heavy duty pain killers and told it was just a muscle pull in my neck...it felt like a bone had snapped and was poking me, while a trailer ran over my neck..kai! it wasnt funny.

The following days didnt hold much promise either, I was pretty much knocked out by the pills every other day and could hardly get any work done. Still cant. I'm awake at 3:44, a lot on my mind and I don't know where to dump them.. I can't even write any list.

Between my growing obsession for dreadlocked guys, >see pic below>

and research proposal deadline looming, I've got a mighty lot on me head >_< and I'm thinking to give Him a chance, oh blurdy!

I'm just hoping to have a great start to this week, (What with me still up at 4am!!)  maybe check out Swan lake, Watch Alice in Wonderland, Eat at the swanky new Asian (Chinese + Malay +Taiwanese+ everything Asian) restuarant. Yeah.... ^_^