Recent Posts

Saturday, July 31, 2010

yeh kinda bored

Your result for The Perception Personality Image Test...

NBPC - The Daydreamer

Nature, Background, Big Picture, and Color
You perceive the world with particular attention to nature.  You focus on the hidden treasures of life (the background) and how that fits into the larger picture.  You are also particularly drawn towards the colors around you.  Because of the value you place on nature, you tend to find comfort in more subdued settings and find energy in solitude.  You like to ponder ideas and imagine the many possibilities of your life without worrying about the details or specifics.  You are in tune with all that is around you and understand your life as part of a larger whole.  You are a down-to-earth person who enjoys going with the flow.


You see, July is one of the months i really like, but that didn't stop it from hurting me.
Bad decisions, one after the other.
Within and out of my control.
Didn't stop it from hurting me.

I'm glad its over. Time to make some things right..atleast.

I Write Like..

So I analyzed one of the text I wrote ages ago and it turns out!

I write like
Stephen King
I Write Like by Mémoires, Mac journal software. Analyze your writing!

LOL! Hahaha..analyzed two other seperate text and found out i write like James Fenimore Cooper and Lewis Carroll. The only conclusion I can draw is that I'm versatile and I write like a guy!

Thursday, July 29, 2010

Doesnt it hurt???

I mean like, what's in the bag, air?
how can you carry it like this without hurting???
someone school me please.

Look what i found!

So I got to this blog  through a website i frequent
Yep! it has inspired me,

maybe I can effectively unwind doing this.
I will dedicate this weekend to pure decadence.
....not really, I just like the word


When I'm de-stressing my mind goes blank, blank, blank.
I don't care about anything or anyone not even myself,
i just want it blank.
Sometimes i mindlessly shop, sometimes i mindlessly eat too
but you know, you could never ignore the taste of a Magnum.
but yeah, blank, blank, blank.

I do feel like alcohol.

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

what the crack!

I don't feel 'alive'
What is this life anyway.
I'm just so stressed, i thought i knew the reasons but i can't seem to place it
and it seems I be taking it on everyone else. naaah..not likely
they are just asses and deserve my backlash.

Monday, July 26, 2010

eh eh What? what?

What is this, I remember tweeting about 'wondering where i was going to find ENTP from'
Fallen into my laps now,
I'm excited, intrigued but the question at this point now is What is this?, Is it worth it?


Sunday, July 25, 2010

Far Apart

So I'm observing something. I'm in this house. I'm in the sitting room, on my laptop, listening to Janelle Monae with earphones.The man of the house is chatting away in Yoruba on his cell phone, the lady is on the house phone chatting away in Britico-English, The son is watching Telly and now on to Facebook

Together but so Far apart.

Saturday, July 24, 2010

...the unknown

I pack my case. I check my face.
I look a little bit older.
I stop my pace. I check my heart

It feels a little bit harder.

With one deep breath, and one big step, I move a little bit closer.
I move a little bit closer.
For reasons unknown.

Friday, July 23, 2010

Never good enough

All i wanted was to help. I've managed to turn into a nervous wreck.

Thursday, July 22, 2010

The Silly

So someone, on hearing my age, exclaimed 'You are old oo' in terms of marriage. I could only laugh at the point. This is what i've done, brought silly into my life.

But the thing is, If you don't know silly people, you will know people who know silly people, and one day or the other, their silly shows up in your face...Sad thing about this world.

On the other hand, having friends who care, and can cook wellu wellu ...mehn my tummy was filled with food and laughter, yesterday was a good day. 

The funny thing is in silliness, the silly asked me to cancel this dinner, aah..too silly! ^_^

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Friendship by Proxy

I can't stand it, I don't do it.
If we cannot become friends by ourselves then I'm not into it.

I used to wonder why I'm hardly interested in the friends of my friends
Even my close friend who is married, I hardly ask after his wife!
But then finally reflected on the fact that friendship to me would never ever be had in this way,
thank you very much.

I can feel it calling in the air tonight.....

I live for the drum sequence in this song, Epic!
i should revive my music blog...its about time.
oooh ok, back to werk!

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

What are you afraid of?

Human Behavior scares me the most. Wanton cruelty and wickedness - I don't think there's anything scarier than that on the planet.

-Jeremy Dyson

Yeah, me too.

The Magicians

A bird from no where, flowers from behind your ears, rabbits in a hat, things that werent there, now appear.
Sleight of hand you say, maybe, maybe not. But the Magician gets things to come.
Do you know any? I know some.
They thrive on the principle, if they want something it comes to them, who am I to fault this?
as long as I am not the 'thing' they want.
when I become the 'object' they lose their magic. I will not come.

If you want something, go, do and try to get it, forget magic.

Saturday, July 17, 2010

Oh My, This Is Awkward

So, this week has been a mix of what not and things you really don't wanna know. Living without internet in my house, blessing or curse, i really can't decide.

But what do you when when you are walking with a guy you just met at 1am, and you walk past a store with a nicely made up bed in the show window, then you say something like 'Aah this is the bed of fantasies' and he says
'Oh what do you fantasize about, tell me..i fantasize about handcuffs and being blindfolded'  O.O *Crickets* O.O
 then you say 'I only fantasize about sleeping and having happy dreams'  because you've been having visions and nightmares lately. then he says 'Ooh ok, our fantasies are different'  *__*

The world would be a better place...

If people just stopped trying to touch my hair,
c'mon now! >_<

Monday, July 12, 2010


This made me laugh this week

Sunday, July 11, 2010

Shedding Tears

I went to celebrate with my friend over her recent DR. status. Just before the party commenced, I saw her younger siblings running around, playing peekaboo. I just smiled and thought about how happy and carefree they were, how life used to thing I knew I started crying. Ran to the bathroom to get a grip of myself.

The act of crying has been defined as "a complex secretomotor phenomenon characterized by the shedding of tears from the lacrimal apparatus, without any irritation of the ocular structures"

I stared at myself in the mirror and asked what these tears were for. Tears of joy? Tears of sadness? I honestly couldn't place it. But I was so emotional. I didn't have the best childhood possible but it was just the times of innocence that can never be gotten back. I stood there thinking, life has just gone and passed, passed, passed. 

Anyways, when I managed to get a grip of myself, and got out. Met some women who had arrived, they encouraged me to sit outside and get some air, got talking..and just relieved myself. Only to hear that a 27 yr old lady had lost her husband of same age to some disease. I had no more tears but kept of thinking about how this life is. I had so many different emotions running through me at the moment, what to do?, what to do?, what to do? Live in the moment. I thought about how rough my week had been 'Live in the moment' With a much needed sigh, I abandoned the fresh air and went in to party. 

Crying is indeed Therapeutic

Friday, July 9, 2010


Thursday, July 8, 2010

Tabula Rasa

No not the game!

Z is for Zero....So I 'unfollowed' all the people I follow on twitter
Why? one morning I just felt like a swarm of bees where all over my head (real ones not vuvuzeli)
and I couldn't take it any more, plus i know I've tried staying off twitter, but i cannot, not for long
the only option was to create some *ZEN* on my time-line.

Anyways, I did want to tweet at, use it as fodder for my project blog..e.t.c  e.t.c
All well and good I'm liking the concept right now, but I'll wait to see how it eventually turns out.

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

Another Day, Another case of the Runs


Monday, July 5, 2010


'I still have mad love for you'

These are the ones to run away from, Four-Fourty!

Sunday, July 4, 2010

Get in line!!!

I love having things organised and all. And I know I should label my posts but..aargh well whatever.

Why so scared..

ooooooh, this modern love!

Anyway, This week has just been so much has happened..its so much to take in really, From traveling to attend the 2-day event in shoreditch, meeting up with friends, Family, travelling to Bicester, and now back to 'Castle its been one long week. My aunty calls me World Traveller cos i even have to go back in three days time. Exhausting, i wish i was travelling first class...hehe

I have never been more tired in my life to be honest, plus my precious wonderful phone has been spoilt by Miss N, my niece. This week, i have to sort out things on the school front, house front, visa front, ball many fronts i hope i can carry it all, Lord I pray for strength.

What is love.

"What is love 

Oh baby, don't hurt me 

Don't hurt me no more 
Oh, baby don't hurt me 
Don't hurt me no more 

What is love"

I really 'love' this song, by Haddaway, but the question never got answered, He didnt want to be hurt that's for sure. It seemed like the person on the other end didnt seem to care much. So what is this Love thing. I wouldnt attempt to give any long explanation, but i will give an account of what i know it isnt.

''I don't know anyone who loves a highly sarcastic person" someone said to me last week. My reply was 'Then i dont want those kinds of people loving me'  Besides, he is rather ignorant....Not that i'm highly 

But If you love people because they are good enough to love, or just okay enough to deserve your love, i suggest that you pocket it..atleast i dont want that from anybody. So the moment things change, and you become less desirable, the person withdraws their love..

Help me out somebody..its really difficult, but its one step in admitting what should be.