O Fortuna

Ok, So between Saturday and now, i failed in my task to make soup! aaah. And theres no chance now cause I go on hols from Friday. oh well!!. I've been busy making plans for my holiday, I don't want to exceed two weeks, the work i have to do is MASSIVE. but i want to relax too, Moving a lot around the south end, should be fun!

On Sunday, forgot a document for my CRB check (enrolled to help in a creche) so i had to go for the evening service in church. While I was feeling good with myself through out the day, cause I looked 'Trendy'. The evening sermon which was 'Healing Life's hurt' began to bring about memories, some good some bad.

ooh the good times, going for fellowship at Transit Village, watching and dancing to Colby's treehouse, Kids Praise and the donut man, I recently dug these up on Youtube and it made me wanna cry. Also when we were younger my sisters would say i was the ugly one. I took it in stride, i dont really know how it affected me, but being told your the ugly one could never have good feelings come with it. Still i believe things like this helped me shape ideas about myself from a very early age. It didnt matter if i was the 'ugly' one, someone had to be.lol.

Anyway, i look back and only laugh, we were kids. Experiences can make you Bitter or Better, make your choice. Ive made mine ^_^

Meanwhile apart from my 'loc-ed guy obssession' of which I actually saw two guys in one day who totally rocked my boat, both dark skinned, one had long locs but he had a kid with him, DAMM! lol, the second one was in passing, he had 'cornrows' fine boi..:(

My latest obsession is O Fortuna by Carl Orff. It is very popular but I didn't know who the composer was until recently, and I cant stop playing it....it speaks volumes to me...

O Fortuna
velut luna
statu variabilis,
semper crescis
aut decrescis;
vita detestabilis
nunc obdurat
et tunc curat
ludo mentis aciem,
egestatem,
potestatem
dissolvit ut glaciem.

Sors immanis
et inanis,
rota tu volubilis,
status malus,
vana salus
semper dissolubilis,
obumbrata
et velata
michi quoque niteris;
nunc per ludum
dorsum nudum
fero tui sceleris.

Sors salutis
et virtutis
michi nunc contraria,
est affectus
et defectus
semper in angaria.
Hac in hora
sine mora
corde pulsum tangite;
quod per sortem
sternit fortem,
mecum omnes plangite!

English Version 

 

O Fortune,
just as the moon
Stands constantly changing,
always increasing
or decreasing;
Detestable life
now difficult
and then easy
Deceptive sharp mind;
poverty
power
it melts them like ice.

Fate—monstrous
and empty,
you whirling wheel,
stand malevolent,
well-being is vain
and always fades to nothing,
shadowed
and veiled
you plague me too;
now through the game,
my bare back
I bring to your villainy.

Fate, in health
and in virtue,
is now against me
driven on
and weighted down,
always enslaved.
So at this hour
without delay
pluck the vibrating string;
since through Fate
strikes down the strong,
everyone weep with me!

Cigarettes, Sugar and Nice things.

I have a Love-Hate relationship with the smell of cigarettes. I was sitting in the studio one morning this week and someone had opened the windows because the studio was getting too warm and was quite disturbing. But as fresh air flowed in, the smell of cigarette wafted in, i am certain it was moisture in the air and the smell that triggered my memories. Water + Cigerette always triggers childhood memories, splashing in the pool at the Apapa Club, having suya and just precious pure fun times. amazing. Really really sad i can't bring those times back again.

Funny, as i went along the day, different things began to trigger memories, I was cooking and as i opened the Maggi cubes, The days of Chocomilo and Picnics on 1004 grounds, began to swirl in my mind. they don't say 'the good old days' for nothing.

I was trying to make a cuppa too, and realized the days of my sugar had come to an end...ok, St Louis cubed sugar is triggered and brings along memories of days in 1004, putting cubes in 'Ogi' lol. good times!

Yesterday,

The day before one of my coursemates had asked me why we 'black' girls like to 'tie' our hair. He meant plait or twist, i tried to explain though, but i untwisted my hair, and had this massive fro which i walked around the streets of Tyne land with. Anyways, that led to one of my teammates saying, Your hair is massive! which led to discussion about hair and childhood haircuts. I was in stitches as i told them the story of how i tried to change this (for example)

To this,

When i was in secondary school and i was on low cut, i walked around with my eyes facing the sky, HILARIOUS!

Aah, it was a pretty good week, still on the search for jobs and ish, stabbed Gidi Night at the Empress today, Got my test results yesterday and its all good, nothing is wrong with me! yay!

Other things!

Housemate offered me a ride to Birmingham, yay!

Main Goal for this weekend, Make Soup!

Complete Research proposal

Oh yeah i'm TOTALLY Obsessed  ^_^

But, have you seen a finer guy!

Social Media is the Devil!

Err,..ok i just wanted to say, my week has been quite good. EVERYTHING didnt go as planned but pretty close. I guess its just about trying your best every minute of the day, being in the moment, understanding that ultimately the choice is really yours. My team made a headway in our project, having to tailor three concepts into one, with some help from our programme leaders, it went well.

After all that on tuesday, I went to attend a presentation by The Difference engine, http://www.thedifferenceengine.eu/ Six teams presented and i was most interested in

>> www.Geogoer.com

>>  Wishl.st app on facebook

>> Kuwalu, if it works as expected...

and the other ideas which will be wonderful to see how they all develop. It was a really nice time out, interacting with people other than the norm, plus there was food afterwards and wine! which i kept kicking back my throat like water. When my head started to swim, i knew it was time to let but not without taking off with three bottles of wine. I gave one to my friend though..i'm not that greedy.lol. Couldnt believe i was tipsy and going for a church cell group meeting. Never again, what a night!

My friend teased me that was in role-play costume, ok yeah i dressed up like this.

White shirt...check (better fitted though), Grey short skirt..check. No tie though, i had on TEAL tights, imagine people at the connect group arguing that it was GREEN. LOL!! Teal is my favorite colour at the moment though.

 I felt fufilled as i chucked two bottles of wine (Red n White) in my fridge ^_^. But i had never felt as knackered as i did, and i slept almost immediately i got home at about 12am.

The next day, i woke up with a massive headache, alcohol really needs its limit. Managed to get out of bed about 9am, missing out on my first lecture.lol, not really a lecture though..but i had planned to make it. But i got ready to attend the one at 11am, a lecture about Branding by 'N' Royle. it was an OK lecture. Then got to talk with Irini, the PHD. it was rewarding and i left with a better understanding on what i have to do concerning my proposed Phd leanings.

Managed to encounter a rude person at my local fruit shop, smh! got the bag i ordered from Ebay, quite disappointed. erhm erhm, i postponed my cooking today, but did some cleaning. I gave myself a major fright thinking i had lost my phone and IDs..lol, so funny.

Its all good, now i have to do some work before bedtime 2:30am knacks... :), and i'm hoping i make the Twestival later today, it'd be nice to see the folk again..

AND >>>>>> ^_^  i need help!

My 160th

Did i mention before that i love round figures and even numbers?? Did i also mention i hurt my neck last week? ok. i haven't written any post since the day I went to sleep and woke up with the sun streaming through my window and a song in my heart, with a firm belief that the day was gonna be great!

Well, the day was great.....if you are a sadistic pessimistic character who loves to see pretty gals like me get hurt! >_<  //kidding on the pretty part// lol. I swear, the only stressful thing i did that morning was run for the bus. But as soon as i got into my school building, my neck just snapped. I guess its an accumulation of decades of bad posture, but it should have given a warning! it could be something worse...but hey i'm not the sadistic....

My day was pretty ruined at that point, cos while fighting the urge to turn left, had to get on the bus, find a hospital and get well! i was given a bunch of heavy duty pain killers and told it was just a muscle pull in my neck...it felt like a bone had snapped and was poking me, while a trailer ran over my neck..kai! it wasnt funny.

The following days didnt hold much promise either, I was pretty much knocked out by the pills every other day and could hardly get any work done. Still cant. I'm awake at 3:44, a lot on my mind and I don't know where to dump them.. I can't even write any list.

Between my growing obsession for dreadlocked guys, >see pic below>

and research proposal deadline looming, I've got a mighty lot on me head >_< and I'm thinking to give Him a chance, oh blurdy!

I'm just hoping to have a great start to this week, (What with me still up at 4am!!)  maybe check out Swan lake, Watch Alice in Wonderland, Eat at the swanky new Asian (Chinese + Malay +Taiwanese+ everything Asian) restuarant. Yeah.... ^_^

I miss Thunderstorms

I really do miss thunderstorms and lightenings. I remember thinking about this when I was getting drenched in the rain on sunday. My housemate and I talked about the 'African Rain' lol. I began to reminsice about times it really showed me pepper, but the feeling that comes after..... when you have fresh warm dry clothes on, in a warm house, curtains drawn, pepper soup in hand, movie on the telly and the rain, lightening and thunder keeps banging on like theres no tommorrow..some kind of bliss, I swear.

Anyhoo, still felt quite ill today, but I had to make it down to attend a lecture by Prof Irini Pitsaki on 'Cultural Product design' after she gave the lecture and questions were being asked, I felt compelled to challenge some of her points which I did, but then felt sorry i did :(. anyway, got chatting with her after the lecture as people filed out. I will be having more talks with her, and over coffee ;D

Went on my Blast from the Past spree again, watched 'High school High' fricking funny! and 'My stepmother is an alien' omg, seeing all those people again in their 'Young' state. still very funny, and it did take me back...wayyy back, i was like ''see graphics eeeh'' lol.

Had a nice chat with my housemate, its so inevitable that our talks always goes back to 'Africa' from make-up to Africa.lol Mount Kilimanjaro and lions and zulu music.lol. good fun. Atleast I still have one housmate with a good head on good shoulders.lol.

umm, i was gonna start a header with the topic 'Things I saw on the metro today' still trying to sort out my phone 'camera connection to pc' issues. be right back on that.

For now, gotta sign out, no couch sleeping for me today, gotta be up sharp by 8am max. :D

Happy Belated St. Pats, no Guinness this time!

Is it strange that the Tyneside Irish center is in Chinatown, or is it just me?!?!

CNT

Woke up yesterday and just couldn't move, pretty important day at school and my legs gave out. I had a massive headache to boot, pretty shitty start to my day. Went back to sleep and finally made a way out by 12pm. I've had this numbness in my legs on and off, i just hope the blood test doesn't return anything scary. I really hate not being where i ought to be, even if it turns into a waste of time, my day was pretty much mapped out before i went to bed. And then things didn't go as planned, a real bummer.

Anyways *Sigh*

I went to get some dairy products, then tried to look for the Indian vermicelli (Kheer), no shop around had it and i had to settle for some over sweet 'thing', never again!

Blast from the past

Once upon a time not too distant in the past, was a guy i liked. He disappointed me a number of times, not intentional i reckon, still it wasn't a good look. He 'disappears', for well a long time and then he showed up yesterday. Said he was sorry and all. Good good, happy new year.

Also! i watched Splash!! Tom Hanks looked so cuuute.lol, I cant believe people thought Daryl Hannah was that beautiful, and then Eugene Levy...lololol. Good fun i tell ya.

March Mashup!

Wow, it feels like such a long time since i blogged, ooh ok.Whats been up...aargh this is why i said to blog every single day...cos i forget stuffffffffff!!! ok, calm no panic.

Acada

Sometimes i do ask myself, Who send you go school?! ITs been busy busy plus working with industry deadlines, it keeps you on your toes though, great experience. I've been slacking still, i have a paper to submit by the end of this month and i have only mapped out what i'm gonna do, havent put ink to paper. this week will have to suffer that. Also i have to submit a research proposal, had a chat with one of my lecturers and he gave me some direction. The funny thing is, the more i say, 'I'm not cut out for this kind of rigorous academic' i find myself delving deeper, am i denying something here? lol. Can't believe i missed the International Sudent conference, where did my head go to! New week, gotta stay on top of things, easier said than done, but can still be done.

House Palava

Gas leak??! 999!! was i scared or what!, anyways, it turned out it was manageable and while everyone got gas, my flat was as cold as ice, had to call the landlord, who said someone had turned off the mains for my heater. Some people are just mental! anyways i'm as warm as toast now ^_^

Mother's Day

I tried reaching out to all the mothers i know.lol. My mum called, called my aunties,, sister, it was nice to spread the cheer, but i realised it was only Nigeria and the Uk celebrating mothers day, Naija and follo follo. lol. i missed out on the flower given out at my church cos my landlord was in my house trying to solve my heating problems :(

Surprise Dinner and Vermicelli

Went out with my housemate, got drenched by rain badly. All my stylishness was outta the window, it was an evening church service which was like no church i'd ever gone to, more like a music concert, very energetic, amazing! After, her sister picked us up, drove us to her house and then on to an Indian restaurant in South Shields, had a great time laughing, gisting eating, now i have an obsession for Kheer, an Indian pudding made of vermicelli, chai i need to have it! They call it the perfect dessert, i love it!
It was a really nice time out, just sad that the next day was Monday, i was so full till about 12pm the next day. lol.

Other stuff

I've been playing techno through out last week, some Chiddy bang and the regulars. Watched Gaga and Beyonce's video, i reserve my comments... Inspired by my housemate and sister, i''m back to playing my Zulu songs.great fun, forgot how much i liked them. I've been watching Dancing on Ice, and my favorite didn't get a high score on Sunday, I'm so sad about that, but her 6. performance was too on point, how do you top that!? lol. Caught a bug on Thursday, couldn't attend my Friday lecture and Saturday charity event, what a bummer!

I think i've written enough for now, i be back tomorrow..with anymore i remember... ^_^

The perfect man.

From this picture its obvious that Perfection is relative. I don't want a guy who is so ribbed, aargh. But i do like someoone who can iron his own clothing, and mine sometimes ;D

Still, this has been the topic of debate, who is perfect? is there anyone who is? you ask, we really can't know perfect. Bu what does perfect even mean. 'Perfection' has been defined as being complete and flawless. Tis can only exist within discrete states. Any analog situation could never be perfect, therefore we humans, there is no hope of/for perfection.

Still, what do people mean by the perfect..

ok, this made me LOL and quite loudly too. Not perfect for me, i don't like a quiet man, neither do i like  a clown.

Some people believe there are perfect guys, like a blog i read, where the ladý's dilemma was that the guy was perfect but she didnt like him. He was either imperfect, or she was just plain crazy and making excuses. If he was perfect , there would be no question of like/not.

I have given this a thought, i mean, who hasnt at my age. I have 'prevented' myself from dating a number of characters. They seemed like nice guys infact they are great guys but not ok for me. I just can't, i won't settle for anything. Who even wants to be someone, someone else settled for.. The need or want for a partner has to transcend my selfishs need if i am 100% honest or it won't happen. And i know i'm not quite there.

But when i get there, i will find that man, the perfect man and put his picture right here,

LOL.

Emo Blackmail

I'm the last person anyone should try this on, sadly theres no chance of it succeeding anyways. I cannot be threatened by anyone's offer or withdrawal of friendship, i dont think its that precious. Infact if it gets to this stage i really don't need it. One person told me this week or last, can't really remember. He said i was insolent and rude and this and that, just because he wanted me to do something which i'm not. I'm surprised though that it didnt occur to him before.lol. 'so be it' another dude says. To be honest, i'm only really shaky when i can't connect with female friends anymore.

I cannot be blackmailed into grovelling at anyones feet because they have 'so much' to offer. Life is too short to live like this. To the best of my abilities to i seek to provide the highest value i can to this world and refuse to be burdened by anyone person's view or perception.

So please, if you were planning this tactic, refrain or forever waste your time
Cheers! ^_^

Quiet and Whistles

........AAaaAhaaAaaah ahhh, It's all quiet and i'm completely obsessed with whistles. No, not those you can buy at the store, those that come with humans, specially talented people who have the whistle register. Voice like the Angels..

I have nothing more to say though, I wish i was someonelse for you, i don't want to see someone like you hurt, but I can't whistle.

some of us just can't.

March, Soldier On...

I'm so grateful for everything i am, i have. I wonder why it takes certain events to put things in perspective for us. You realise there are really more important things to live for.

Friday was chill, tried to shake the gloomy feeling i had, just relaxing and thinking of nothing but breathing in and out. Friday was my sisters birthday, and i wished her all the best life could offer, couldnt help but laugh at the last converstaion we had, She is a crazy one. I read 'Catcher in the Rye' and listened to ballads, from Leona Lewis to Celine Dion. Was supposed to go out to the 'Empress' just didnt feel like seeing humans, really.

Saturday was domesticated and couldn't hang out cause my friend was nursing a massive hangover..

Sunday, well, church, went grocery shopping, was in the mood for some cooking, set the chicken to boil with all the spices..hmm it smelled good, then it smelledwrong. Dashed into the kitchen to see the chicken burning, my morale burnt along with it and i couldnt think of cooking any thing again. Luckily (good to have friends who like to cook) i was invited to a dinner at sandyford, lol. it was all good, not a bad time out at all.

Dedicated to the Friend, and all those we've lost : Soldier On ~The temper trap