Links of the day

I've been around the interwebs quite a lot this week and there are some links and articles, you really should go and read.

This is a documentary which should get all the press required! I don't understand why it shouldn't. These are the kinds of things that need to be constantly projected into people's minds. I was over at the Nostalgia Project on Facebook, and looking at pictures from the Biafran war, GORY. Totally unnecessary. But I realize more often than not, we are attracted to sleaze, to bad news, more than the seeming good things. This has to go EVERYWERE if we want to see a change.
The Imam and The Pastor

My point of view, is that for Open relationships to work, Both parties have to be completely insensitive, both in conscience and heart. You will be hard pressed to find someone like this who doesn't have mental problems.
Why Open Relationships just can't

In the spirit of Christmas, a nice video on how the story of Jesus's birth would play out in our world today.

If Jesus were born today

I am a language Enthusiast, I've been creating mine since I can remember, born out of the frustration of only being able to speak one language fluently. Anyway, I really like this site, much insight into Caledonia.

Slainte!

I'm passionate about my heritage and who I am as African, therefore there are
100 things you should know about Africa

Beyonce, really?? I like her, but I don't like this and I don't like what it seems to portray
Assvertising


I like Twitter, and Nigerians tweet ALOT.
Twitter Activity


You know..Every 'Black' person NEEDS to read and understand this
The Dangers posed by Black Hair Products

Strictly When I sleep

I've always had vivid dreams, and I will continue to have them. Gone are the days where I would look through my mother's book called 'Demonic Dreams' or something of the sort. Which was just a horror book that could give Stephen King a run for his money. These books written by 'Men of God' on how to decipher someone's dream. I didn't really take it seriously, but some of my dreams did scare me.

Some days ago after tweeting about some dreams on Saturday/Sunday night, My uncle walks into my room and says 'Let me teach you about Dreams' I was like O.o. My friend had called earlier and said he dreamt He died. I shook my head, ok let me see what this man wants to say. So I go with him.

He opens up a book and begins to read about REM and NREM sleep and the kind of dreams they induce..Yeah I'd read about all these before. More on how our dreams are interpretations or influenced by our day to day life, supressed thoughts and what not. I thought about the three dreams I'd had that day. One, totally random but involved someone I know but I've never seen physically, the second involved my older sister, her friend and their son, also an actress from a movie starring genevieve, she was quite wicked in the movie ad in my dream, she tried kidnapping the boy. It also involved tube-line, Metroplitan line, Picadilly e.t.c the third dream, was about acting in a Dojo (Remb Nicki Minaj video) in North London!! None of them has to do with any day to day living of mine, but they are obviously influenced  by a lot, nothing seems unfamiliar to be honest.

My uncle, goes on to say, God will never give us dreams, that cause fear, if he says he hasn't given us the spirit of fear, why would we have nightmares and then claim they are messages from God or something of the sort. You are100% more likely to die from anxiety than from the dream you had about dying.
The last dream I had was a combination of many things, but the main part I remember being about one of those I follow on twitter, or someone that follows me. He lives in a house with the number four, he has sisters (3?) younger or older not sure, Father wears glasses, He is secretly gay....I dunno why I would dream about this, is there someone that really exists with this description, I don't know. All I can say is I dream.

Latest Dreams, Alien ships, Icicles, Human crowd simulator, me running tracks and some 'Asian' girl asking me where I was from, ...HMMM

Update: I dreamt I sued T.M Lewin, I went to one of their stores in central London, and no one wanted to attend to me cause I was wearing a hoodie and jeans, basically smelled of 'racist'. HMM

Natural Loving

So I decided to start my 'Natural Loving' blog today at
 http://naturalloving.wordpress.com
:)

Forgive Me, I never planned to be skinny

I was always the skinniest one, I still am. I swear, I don't know why. I have been called all sorts of names, skeleton 101, packet of bones (like we aren't all) anorexic but I wasn't as skinny as the girl in my secondary school who they called 'Escape'. One day I had to ask why. They said she was the skeleton that 'escaped' from the biology lab, cruel but HILARIOUS.
I honestly can't understand why people obsess to be skinny or whatever or why models have to go the extreme, but I definitely understand the need to have slim ones on the runways *side-look*. Anyways yeah, I still eat quite a lot, I do feel hungry lots of times but I'd rather small meals every hour than a big hearty meal that I can't finish. People don't seem to understand that and think I do not like food *rolls eye* Personally sometimes I do think I'm too skinny still........... I don't think it is something that I 'became' I have even cried over being skinny and asked God why?? But I kanye shrugged it and got on with my life. Even though I still look like a pre-pubescent boy, I am ok, I know I'm healthy and that's all that really matters, thank you very much so now gtfomf.

Don't Ignore the Living

This morning, one of my friends, tweeted that she was watching My Girl, remember the movie? It brought tears in my mind, and the replay of a particular scene that never left my head for over 15yrs. I told her, I'd cry loads if I tried to watch, but deep down I knew I would look for it and watch it. I've been crying loads since. It just hurts it really does, especially someone like me, always quick to put myself in other people's shoes. It's heart breaking..losing someone so close. But Jamie Lee said something I didnt remember as a child, 'Don''t ignore the living' It's hard to remove our minds, from those who are gone, but nothing we do can bring them back. We should focus more on life and those who are living. 

Another aspect of the movie that brought tears to my eyes, was the love shared between friends at such a young age, there was no guile, oh how we long for that now. Its such a thing as heartbreaking as death, here you only have people with ulterior motives (for the most part) around you. When Jesus said we had to become like children, he wasn't talking for fun. We think we know so much as adults and our minds and heart tend to get clouded and hardened. Kids show the purest form of love you can get. I have to live with this reality and acknowledge those I hold dear and hold them dearer, living life. 

     With this I say Happy Birthday to my Friend, Tosin ^_^ hip hip hooray

Music is much better.

Everyone knows there is a magic about music. My uncle today said anyone who doesn't respond to music definitely has mental problems, he was like, there can never be anything like MJ's Thriller, it was pure awesomeness. He was genius. Music does so much to me, I cannot describe. I can describe my perfect day though :). 

I remember just months ago in my flat all alone in Geordieland. The room had white walls, I love white walls, most other colours do my head in. I had just acquired my black logitech sound system, essential. My playlist was Carl Orff's O Fortuna (on repeat) I'm lying on the couch after school, after a meal. It was pure bliss as I watched the sun go down with the room darkening...

Anyways, I have been trying for ages, to get the name of particular pieces of music stuck in my head, and today, they all came together. I'd been watching Misfits, which is an awesome piece of TV and a particular scene comes on with one of the pieces, fantastic! I go on to search for it, I also stumble upon this Site  and this which list a number of pieces used in popular media now I'm in paradise XD

These are the pieces that give me pure joy this wonderful white sunday ^_^ Enjoy. 

The Flower Duet (Delibes) --- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8Qx2lMaMsl8

Chariots of Fire (Vangelis) --- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TYJzcUvS_NU

:D

O Fortuna (Carl Orff) --- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xa7B_S3O_sE

Sweet Soca music (Sugar Daddy) --- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=osSGmHPSLFA

Reading Always helps

I woke up feeling all sorts of weird, my stomach...and when I don't feel alright in my body it tends to affect other parts of my life majorly, especially my thinking ability. But thankfully, if I can get to read I feel MUCH better. I may not be able to articulate thoughts properly..check the awkward 1hr conversation I had with a friend, ok..it was 50% Cool 50% Awkward. Anyways! I also learnt a couple of things from my uncle (EPA + DHA)omega-3, which I intend to put to good use in between him accusing me of suffering from rejection and that I shouldn't beg anyone...I can't say I'm devoid of emotions over the issue, I'm just disappointed and I'm angry with myself..ugh. I intended to blog about my research findings yesterday, but this condition..yah, I hope I feel way better when I wake up , much later today, I may even go outside for some fresh air.

So here I am, listening to a classical radio (Bach on now, quite somber) and clearing out my tabs! long story, but you get the picture, I need to have something organised!! my mind is a mess. I went a bit of blog hopping today, and decided to steal an idea from one of them blogs while i lamented the inability of mine to read or even bother about blogs which come in a black background and green text, throw in some purple flashing lights and red dots. Argh.

So anyhow, this is for you..

Links of the past present and future, enjoy.

Fela on Nigeria  -- http://t.co/SaCWtDl

An Introvert Stands Up for The Right to Stand Alone  -- http://t.co/SaCWtDl

Tosin Martins "Silent Night" -- http://t.co/SaCWtDl

Animated 8 Bit Video Game Themed, Promoting Safe Sex -- http://t.co/TOTXlHd

African Women in UK Silently Suffer Domestic Violence http://allafrica.com/c/-3yZ7u

Nice Start

So I decided to learn how to sew, this week..so far, I really haven't done any thing, but the week isn't over yet! hehe. I am also trying to get particular documents so I can apply for particular documents. Lots of phone calling, e-mails and what not, I'm kinda on the edge.lol. Anyways. the week started with a shine to it. I have started going to church, I really like the church my friend invited me to. I didn't take to it at first, but after a second try. It got me hooked, plus I also get to meet with some students in the afternoon and have a great bible study and food!! LOL. My uncle is even convinced I have ulterior motives involved in going, because its about fourty minutes by train to my house. Last Sunday was the last meeting for the year, so I made sure I was there. It emphasized the essence of Christianity.

After, there was a carol service at the main church. As usual, there was Handel's 'Unto us a child is born' ang  by the Choir, It does take me way back to my secondary school's music club at the carol night..More important though, was the message..which deserves a post on its own. It was preached by Rico Tice, he is an awesome, awesome preacher. He is instrumental in making me stay on at this church. When the service was over, while regretting why I left my ear-muff at home, we (I and some mates from the student fellowship) walked over to an Italian restaurant.

Food was great! Company was Great! I hadn't Laugh-Cried in ages!! I live for such nights. It was sad to leave, but mehn, I still had Fourty Minutes or more journey time to get home, and it was already 9pm. Said my bye-byes and went on. Just close to the station was a crowd and I wondered what was going on,

It was serious! took me way back to Estate days, Days spent playing chess in school. Some of all that happy go-lucky days *Sigh* With a large smile on my face, I went on my way home, Awesome Day! :)

My Cycles too

Where Do we go from here...

I started writing this note last Saturday..but I just could not find the words i really needed, but I will try.

I woke up friday morning thinking, Sometimes we forget people on the internet are real too. The past two days I found out one of those i met on an online forum, NL had deleted me off his facebook friendlist. Someone would think, 'It's only facebook' perhaps, but I didn't think he was just a casual acquaintance. Others have deleted me and I didn't even think twice about it. 

Anyway I was advised to ask him why, personally I thought, yeah..just to know where I stand. I did, and He says ' I didn't think you'd notice or give a fiddler's fart if you did. It's nothing personal. I removed a lotta people who were acquaintances and I rarely communicate with' I honestly can't tell where we got to this point. There are people i don't speak to in months, but when we talk its always a good thing. I was glad I knew, atleast, where I stood with him. And me, being me, I always think about most events of my life quite deeply.

I tweeted then 'The day that an ex-friend explains why he deleted you from his FB friendlist is the same day an old friend tells how much he misses you #life' That was exactly what happened. Someone i had worked with during NYSC and hadnt spoken to, up to five times after told me he that, I really appreciated it.

Some hours later, I heard that a guy I had had some banter with on NL, same forum..had died. This would have been the 1st of December or 30th Novmber my time when he was shot. I immediately felt cold after the whole thing managed to compute. I looked at all the news sources and what not, I just couldn't believe it. This person wasn't even my friend, I had interacted with him once or twice but I felt a sense of loss. 

He last posted on the 29th of November on the forum. The circumstances around his death, completely devastating,I can't imagine what the family are going through. It took me back to; http://teanni.blogspot.com/2010/02/tgiftomorrow.html

Sometimes we think people on here will forever be at a computer, only dying of natural causes, old age, hunger or electric shock. Perhaps..Rapture (as some school of thoughts think it) It's so easy to divide offline/online..but both are as real as each other.
Lots have been said but I couldn't change what I felt, the image replaying constantly in my head, only to wake up on Saturday and hear another terrible thing from Nigeria, I had nightmares..i couldn't sleep, I cried. But we move on.


Tuesday, was my graduation and I have had to ask myself what next? One of the graduants didn't even live to see the day... I appreciated every moment of it. What my family had done, what i'd done..I hold these memories in my heart. I'm at a point where I have to make solid decisions on how I want to move forward. They will not be popular ones, I know myself..But for the sake of my sanity and quality of Life I want for my self I must make them. I just want to take a deep breath and learn from every experience that I've been or I'm going through...One thing I always have at the back of my head though is that, Change is inevitable..the snow will not always fall, even in Caledonia..

Why is Death something sad?

I remember on an online forum PC, someone asked, Why is Death something sad? And the person said, personally they don't feel sad especially if it was a painless death*  This was my first post

Its either the thread-starter doesn't know the meaning of sadness or I am . Losing 20p is sad enough, talk more a whole human being. I've never had anyone close to me who died a simple nice death, so i obviously cannot grasp what this person is talking about.I have been sad, even now, i still sigh, when i think of what they may have become (the young ones esp). I don't feel sad because i would miss their company, I feel sad mostly cause of the dreams they had, that someone or something snatched away from them. Death in itself is nothing, my uncle was saying the other day, Death is one of the closest thing to each and everyone of us. If one was to live in such fear, you'd die just thinking of it

Many posters, echoed the same feeling, that Death was something to feel sad about..that is..those who are still living, The dead person cannot feel what we feel. For me, it's the finality of it - the thought that I will never, ever see them again. Someone says which i totally agree with. Its the most final thing, that's sad enough.

and my last post was

He wasn't my friend but I feel a great deal of sadness. Sometimes I read these things in the papers, I get sad because people just die anyhow. But actually haven interacted with the persons seems to make it worse, somehow you wish you didn't even know them at all. Its easy to forget people even on online forums are actual real people like you, they die and you'll never ever ever see their words again. Thinking of their family.....ah *sigh*

The finality of it, Is indeed very sad.

Death will always be something sad for different reasons to many people. But do we allow it to eat us up? I think not. We owe it to those alive to live in the best way possible. Death is not something that will only happen to some people, It is a sure thing for everyone alive now 'You live to die another day', so while you still have your breath, LIVE. Life is Now.

Out of Mind

I haven't been in the mood to blog, cause I couldn't get my head settled on one thing, besides that, I had to travel and sort some ish out. Then got snowed in and delayed, and teary-eyed. ARRGh..I like that things have slowed now and I can breath..My blocked nose also gave way.
I guess I'm back now, I still feel a bit tired and lax in my brain but I gotta say thanks to the people who keep my brain from getting dusty. Just to add, For me Out of Sight is Out of mind, and Distance makes my heart go further, so I know how it must feel. I wasn't able to reach anywhere on Nanowrimo, but I'm still writing *fingers crossed* Erhmm, what else..ok back to blogging.xx