Churchianity (The Afro and the Dragon)

I was going to tweet my usual sunday rant, but my internet was out on Sunday, so I missed that, decided to blog it.

Hmm, i made the decision not to go to any "church" anymore, there's a lot I want to say, but I would limit this post to last two Sundays I went to "church"

The upper one, I choose the wrong seat and I try to tweet, the ushers are all over me, one of them, a really mean dude tried to seize my phone and call security.LMAO!

Ha! But my bible is on d phone, their Argument: we are in the presence of God, Mine: God is everywhere!

They finally leave me alone cause I tell them the phone is offline. The sermon,(comedy+motivational speak) not too bad.

I wasn't surprised when the 'bishop' said being 'churchy' would make you 'abound' and 'flourish' The only thing he failed to mention was how churchy Bill gates, Oprah and many more are.

The Last one, So I decided to go to church with my Afro, I got funny stares, almost jaw dropping ones. It also didn't help that I was wearing jeans and reading Paolini's Inheritance series. The really funny part was when the page with the illustration of the Dragon's eye which had already come out and was tucked within the pages of the book floated out. The people sitting close by me were quite startled. lol. I picked the page, tucked it back and continued reading my book jejely.

I really don't want to go there and do this, but its hard to listen to preaching that sounds like. .All i heard that day was 'Car, Car, Car. and Anointing for wealth'. if that isn't a load of rubbish, I dont know what is.

The more I see more of these church doctrines and programs, the more ridiculous it appears and I can't believe I once believed such things. I grew up happy as a 'Christian' child, but when innocence gets stripped off, some things beg for answers, answers these "churches" cannot provide or the brand of Christianity they proffer.

When I tell people I don't attend any "Church", they say they would pray for me, or that I need deliverance, whether jokingly or seriously , that just sums up Churchianity.

It starts with one. . .

Products For my hair include;

Olive Oil {very important}

Emily Millionaire, coconut oil and herbs {very good}

For everyday use.

I wash every four days and condition,

I use Motions conditioning shampoo now, i used Loreal anti-dandruff before,

im looking for something better though,

i make my conditioner which usually consists of {overripe banana, Mayo, Honey, Olive oil, e.t.c} i put it in my hair and cover with a shower cap for more than 2 hours, the result is great, the hair is soft and shiny.

Important: after washing hair put in the Olive oil to lock the moisture in, natural hair needs the moisture!!!

Lol. my hair is really growing and i appreciate it more and more every day

Cheers.

The Return to innocence

My friend, J was asking why i havent been posting about my hair.lol
Well, let me just say i hav bin totaly natural since january and i intend to keep it that way 4 life. I Love my hair and im so happy i hav inspiration everywhere
I would put up pics and write about my hair regiment as often as posible, monthly maybe..tata 4 now!

The Heavy Weight

I couldn’t think of any other way to do it. It’s been spinning around my head for weeks, driving me crazy.
The most important decisions always cripple me in the making. I felt like I couldn’t move. It was only the unbearable weight of the decision that forced me to make it in the end. It’s the only way I could start moving again.

I couldn’t stand it. I was going to sleep at night thinking about it, lying
there in the morning thinking about it, trying to find things to distract me and snatch back a few moments from it during the day, and always worrying I was wearing my heart on my sleeve too much and you would start to wonder what was going on.

I probably could have done it in a better way when it came to it. Probably sooner would have been good for both of us.

I don’t think I’ll know if I’ve made the right decision for a long time, especially with something this big.
I still don’t know if I’m doing the right thing. But I feel better. Lighter.

30th

I really do wish there was a device that would just take your thoughts and translate them directly to words, i cant seem to be able to do that on my own. .

Hmm, i also wonder why people think im so complex or "deep"

BLArgh!

This Modern Love

I havent still gotten over my Bloc party crush, i doubt its going anywhere soon, i hope to see them live later this year sef. :)

Anyhoo, i posted a note about online relationships and co on my facebook page, i dont want to repeat here, but Bloc party's this modern love reminds me of it.

Modern love everywhere, wo this thing really tires me, i closed my hi5 account today, i felt so good..facebook you are next! hehehe

Call me a traditionalist or whatever but, i dont want any modern love.

RAIN!!

Im so loving rain now, after weeks and weeks of fierce flames from the sun, this is beyond welcome..so refreshing. but i know after a week or two of rain, im gonna get upset and will the sun to come back.

Rain falling,
Music produced by Quincy Jones, Tevin Campbell singing Tomorrow from the Back on the Block album..so angelic..,
Chicken in my mouth,

Some sort of bliss.

Funny Feelings....

I feel funny.

Funny bad, really.

Something in the pit of my tummy,

Has nothing to do with butterflies...


i remember sitting in the car with an Indian friend he says

"OOh you have butterflies" because i had a queasy look on,

i reply "You have x-ray vision too?"

I havent played a good game in a long while, i guess thats why. .

Still expecting my Nintendo DS, Mr P!!!

In The National Ass

Yup, I am up in there and I can tell you,

without mincing any of my precious words, IT STINKS!!

Good Times

I have seen good times, great times, fantastic times

Today was not any of those . . .I havent felt so overwhelmed in a while

now I may be quitting my job

I'm so tired, I can't even remember the rest of what i wanted to post

Just Stuff

I always want to update, but theres just too much i have to post, thats why i like this tag question thingys, gives me time to think and you, something to read. .:P


1. How old will you be in five years? 27

2. Who did you spend at least two hours with today ? err...lol

3. How tall are you? 5'6ish

4. What do you look forward to most in the next six weeks? Finishing something i started and starting something beautiful :)

5. What’s the last movie you saw? 7 Pounds

6. Who was the last person you called? Manish

7. Who was the last person to call you? Manish

8. What was the last text message you received? some lament from a hapless stalker

9. Who was the last person to leave you a voicemail? huh

10. Do you prefer to call or text? Depends. Text, usually.

11. Have you ever had drink come out your nose? Yeah!! lol, chokingly!

12. Are your parents married/separated/divorced? Married.

13. When is the last time you saw your mum? Early this month

14. What color are your eyes? Brown

15. What time did you wake up today? 8.30

16. What are you wearing right now? Still in sleep clothes, purple, pink polka dots
17. What is your favorite christmas song? Joy to the World

18. Where is your favorite place to be? In my head

19. Where is your least favorite place to be? Within 30 feet of a Bore

20. Where would you go if you could go anywhere? New Zealand
21. Where do you think you’ll be in 10 years? A Foreign Country
22. Do you tan or burn? I try to avoid being in the sun for long periods of time.

23. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child? Freddy Krueger and Chucky.

24. What was the last thing that really made you laugh? Some dude trying to chat with big grammar..lolol.heck! im still laughing!!
25. How many TVs do you have in your house? 3

26. How big is your bed? Double

27. Do you have a laptop or desktop computer? Desktop and Laptop
28. Do you sleep with or without clothes on? With clothes.

29. What color are your sheets? Blue and Silver

30. How many pillows do you sleep with? i dont really like pillows...

31. What is your favourite season? Dry and Windy

32. What do you like about autumn? huh

33. What do you like about winter? harmattan?
34. What do you like about summer? its almost always summer here

35. What do you like about spring? huh, we dont have spring.lol

36. How many countries have you lived in? just one
37. What cities/towns have you lived in? Abuja, Lagos
38. Do you prefer shoes, socks, or bare feet? Bare Feet

39. Are you a social person? Yes, I try to be.

40. What was the last thing you ate? Fox's Cream Biscuit

41. What is your favourite restaurant? none

42. What is your favourite ice cream? Haagan Daz, Cookies and cream

43. What is your favourite dessert? hmm..Tough question

44. What is your favourite kind of soup? Ogbono

45. What kind of jelly do you like on your PB & J sandwich? I never have PB & J sandwiches, I find them repulsive.

46. Do you like Chinese food? Yuck!.

47. Do you like coffee/tea? Both.

48. How many glasses of water, a day, do you drink on average? maybe five..

49. What do you drink in the morning? Water

50. To be Continued!!

Storms Within

I'm getting more pissed with every passing heartbeat. Yet, one can only wonder, isn't every passing heartbeat another step towards death? Are we not in this world, only so we can die? Is the only reason of living, dying? What purpose do we have, to get up every morning, to a scarred body, work, and do it all over again? Are nothing but toys to a supposed god, moving around and doing everything he "commands"? Does this not mean that suicide is the easiest way out? People say that you shouldn't kill yourself because it's easy, well, isn't anyone who's ever cheated on anything taking the easy way out? So they really can't be saying nothing and still not be involved with hypocrisy. Do we live in a world of liars and hypocrites? Or do they just keep us alive for their own well-being, if they really loved you, they'd let you go to a place where you'd be in peace. This is were hatred comes from, too many people thinking about themselves and not letting others go, making them live a life they don't want to live anymore. Or maybe, the suicidal people are the selfish ones, only thinking about themselves and trying to escape to a better place. That, my friend, is what I want to know.

-----Ida Mehrnoush


I posted this note on my facebook page a few days ago. Only yesterday I saw a memorial page of a friend of some people I know. I looked at his pictures, he was what people would term a "fine" boy, then I decided to look through the wall posts to understand what happened.

I was shocked.

He had committed suicide, took a gun and shot himself.

One of the first thoughts that came to me was, in Nigeria????? I was seriously pained, I didn't know this guy, but my heart felt sore. He didn't seem like a dark person, alone..he seemed like so much fun, goofy and intelligent..someone I would have liked. Still, he must have been going through so much pain, so much anguish...to contemplate and actually commit suicide. Some of his friends said he had seemed normal sometime before the incident.

From what I read, he left a note which talked about a lecturer in school, who maybe had been holding him back from graduating, he had been in university for 8yrs already, for a 4yr course. I wondered if that was pain enough, maybe some people are just stronger than others..

I'm still so pained, but its made me want to be a better person with my friends and family. Though no other person can truly walk in another's shoes, we can hold them, love them and make the journey worthwhile, so that the storm within can gently give way to a soothing calm.

Amala Romance

Okey, I'm eating Amala and I felt like blogging about romance,

figures eh..

I hate to admit that I am a romantic, and I constantly find myself getting jealous of couples who I think met in a very romantic weird way, the weirder, the more romantic..

ah well. I wish I could be twice,..no maybe thrice..frice, fivrice. ..to experience different romantic situations where I meet THE ONE, I think thats what I find appealing about buddhism, and all those religions that talk about reincarnation, but then you'd ask yourself, what if you are reincarnated as a worm?, good heavens!!

I am NOT Superstitious

But. . .

i read a bit too much into numbers, For me, i like to see myself as an EVEN person, most of the numbers associated with me, 99% of them are even numbers, even when i add, multiply the numbers, they still end up EVEN. my birth month, birth year, birth day, serial numbers, admission numbers, matriculation,position in the family. . e.t.c,

So i am sure you will understand when i tell you my apprehension in years which end with odd numbers, those years, i gotta say dont have a lot of good memories o, 2009 now, hmm, i really want to get over this feeling, but i cant shake that this year has a heavy cloud of dark even with all the optimistic positivic rays of hope that i see shining.

2009. . . .Weird things have already begun happening, this year Febuary and March are completly aligned and we have Friday the 13th occuring consecutively, then later in November, making a total of three. . .ODD, ODD, ODD.

2009. . hmm, im just trying to watch this things, and refuse to read meanings into the whole thing, ah well, i still dont like ODD numbers anyhow, except the number 5!

2009

okey!!

New year!!

Old movies and Champagne

thats how we did it o, no church happened,

like Neogogo said, no rollcall in church oo!!LOL

The Really Massive Final Post of 2008

Why i blog, write...i was telling a friend yesterday, i just have to, i have tiny notes scribbled everywhere, in school, it was my lectures notes, in church, my sermon notes because im a very good drifter, i have scribbled on money, clothing, tissue paper, the wall but now i make a lot of notes on my fone. words are just some of my very good friends, but dont get me started on Drawing, lines and figures.....

So, 2008 is almost done eh, so much stuff that happened inbetween, a very eventful year I must say, marriages here and there, graduations, nysc palava,lol mehn , its been one heck of a ride, and ofcourse, sad events woven into the tapestry, life we cannot avoid,

The Rape issue, I actually met the girl while in lagos just before I was called to serve, she was not the picture I had in my mind, she was an ordinary looking dark girl, who was even thinner than I am, shorter too. She was talking with my cousin and until my cousin told me, she was the girl involved in the ordeal, I would have had a better chance of finding gold in my nose than guessing who she was. She was so bouncy, cheerful, she even helped my cousin make lunch. I could only hope that she carries on with life as normal as possible, even in the face of that traumatic experience and as a new year approaches, one cant even imagine what may be going through her mind. I wish her ALL the best, every single one my being can muster.

NYSC;
so i finally relocated to Abuja, and im billed to start work at the National Assembly next year, hmm, im just gonna see how this one goes..i know im the last person to be recommended for civil service/ government work!

I made a couple of new, cool friends and im still boxing my old, cold ones about the ears.lol, you guys are just tooo mush, and especially to my “im very fond of you” friend, who says Fond, these days??? even though we had a mini-argument on christmas/boxing day, we are still tight.

Ya know, as the year slowly drew to an end, i had this nostalgic wave come over me, i remembered a lot of how things were back then, highly influenced by the 80s, teened in the 90s, adultized in the 00s, its been a wonderful journey, they say time changes yesterday but they forget to see that Yesterday also changes the times.i ought to do a seperate post on my Nostalgia but i had to get in this post for the year.

all in all, i can say i am satisfied with this year, i achieved something major and im so happy about it.

Some Things. . .

1.What time did you get up this morning?

3:46am

2. Diamonds or pearls?

Diamonds o!.

3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema?

err. . .Incredible Hulk

4. What is your favorite TV show?

Now, Boston Legal

5. What did you have for breakfast?

Rice

6. What is your middle name?

Antonia

7. What is your favorite cuisine/meal?

hmm....

8.What foods do you dislike?

Okro soup, Semovita

9. None!

10. What is your favorite CD at the moment?

Ma Cheri, FreshlyGround

11. What kind of car do you drive?

Drive ke??!

12. Favorite sandwich?

Plain ol

13. What characteristics do you despise?

??

14. Favorite item of clothing?

Dresses n gowns

15. If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation, where would you go?

hmm, Australia

16. What color is your bathroom?

Pinkish

17. Favorite brand of clothing?

None

18. Where would you want to retire?

Naija

19. Favorite time of day?

Wee hours

20. Where were you born?

this is a matta of controversy

21. Favorite sport(s) to watch?

Tracks, Swimming, Gymnastics and Skating

22. Who do you least expect to respond to this?

???!

23. Person you expect to respond first?

??

24. What laundry scent do you use?

??!!

25. Coke or Pepsi?

Coke!, Pepsi is pure evil

26. Are you a morning person or night owl?

Nocturnal. lol!

27. What size shoe do you wear?

US 9 - 9 1/2

28. Do you have pets?

2 Samoyeds

29. Any new and exciting news you'd like to share with everyone?

Now, err. . .

30. What did you want to be when you were little?

i am still not quite sure......

31.Favorite Candy Bar?

Twix, Snickers. . .LOTS

32. What is your best childhood memory?

playing with any and evrything! having picnics on the lawn

33. What are the different jobs you have had in your life?

web designer, graphics designer, Admin assistant

The License to Kill

The issue of Driving is now becoming a big deal
My dad was saying the other day that he had to test me.
The first and last time I drove, I scratched a brand new car
I'm not afraid of getting behnd the wheel, but really, I can't be bothered

I fear I'm too impatient and I'd probably be driving the way I do in Gran Turismo.
with my brother screaming, can't YOU DRIVE STRAIGHT!


I fear i will drive like my mum who we call Speedy Racer, but I'd be Speedy Racer on Crack
She's the best driver I know, In my dads car, a tortoise will hit the mile mark before the back tires roll.


ANYWAYS, I love seeing people Drive
why take a job from someone, Drivers are meant to Drive
I'm sorry but its the way i see it.


I will be back on this topic, I'm supposed to enter a driving school
let me see how it goes
bye bye 4 now

No Sound

Strange beds have rarely agreed with me, and only after a short burst of troubled slumber, I woke an hour or so before the bugle. It was then still very dark and knowing I had a full days parade ahead of me, I made an attempt to return to sleep. This proved futile and when I eventually decided to get up, it was still so dark that I was obliged to turn on my torch in order to brush my teeth and douse my drowsy face with ice-cold water. But when I was done and had turned off the torch, I could see early daylight peeking through the wire clad windows. When I had gotten up moments ago, the light outside was still very pale and something of a mist was affecting my view of Suleja Hall and the Garden of Eden. Indeed following the pathway to the water pumps, I could see the mist rising from the top of the mountains. there was not a soul to be seen and apart from the tiny scampering noises of the well-fed black rats and an occasional cling-cling of a bunk as the sleeper within turned to the rythm of dreams, there was still no sound to be heard.

to be continued

NYSC

Tonight I find myself in a camp house in the city....village of Paiko. The first day of my orientation is now completed and all in all, I must say I am terribly angry, frustrated but a little bit satisfied and apparently homesick. This stay began this morning almost an hour later than I had planned, despite my preparedness the day before, I still left like I was forgetting some things. I suppose I was also conscious of the fact that once I departed, I was going where no one had gone before. It was an odd feeling, and perhaps accounts for why I delayed my departure so long, wandering through the house, checking I had packed suitable things and making sure my papers were in order.


Its hard to explain my feelings once I finally set off, For the first twenty minutes or so, I couldn't believe I actually was going there, I cannot say I was seized by any excitement or apprehension at all. . , . . . .